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Do you ever question yourself saying...

WHat if Aspergers dosent really exist?....
What If i don't really have aspergers?......
What if Im just ....Evil?......

I know this is going to give me a worse headache, but I'm already in a s**t mood because I can't bowl.

WTF do man made concepts like 'good' and 'evil' have to do with a neurological disorder?

I'd like to believe, that I'm a good person, who likes to talk to others, and help them out. I am not by any means, a monster.

Am I evil?
Yes I am.

Am I evil?
I am Man,
Yes, I am

ooh.

I spend half my time trying to convince myself I am not evil. The other half of my time is spent trying to convince other people I am not evil.

Or, are you trying to make a joke and I'm just not getting it....I guess that's it. My bad.

I believe I know the phenomenon to which you are referring, having experienced it myself. (I was in a bad way then. Doing better now. Still hardly believe I'm out.)

It's very painful. You can't stop beating up on yourself, and it seems obvious that you're evil. In my case, it wasn't so much that I questioned the diagnosis as that I assumed that regardless of whether or not it was correct, I was worthless; I believed myself evil for different reasons.

I wasn't totally correct. I wasn't totally wrong, either. Learning to sort that out, and have a more nuanced self-image, helped somewhat in bringing me out of that hell.

But please recognize that without clarifying, it does sound as if you are implying some things about us (that we act evil, or that Asperger's is easily confusable with being evil) that are not only untrue but offensive. I grasp that, being an Aspie yourself, you don't see that, which is why I'm not offended. You were unclear, and, in fact, that is a pattern with your posts here. (It used to be a pattern with me, too, in my face-to-face interactions. I learned some rules for how not to sound like I was threatening to kill strangers. It's no big deal, but you'll need to work on it.)

Ferdinand, are you and Corp900 the same person? I'm confused.

Ew, of course not. I am just answering from my perspective.

*sounds the troll siren*
*rings the troll bell*
*kicks the troll gong*

I'm not so sure there is such a thing as "evil" in the first place.


There is nothing close to a universal human standard in terms of what
is evil and what is not.

These questions need to be answered first before I can ask myself if i'm evil or not.