I feel a little guilty, for not changing, sooner.

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I know this sounds strange, but as I started to one of my favourite songs, on YouTube, I was feeling a slight twinge of guilt, that It was last year that I've changed and that it wasn't a year, sooner. It was so easy to change, last year. It was so easy to let of all those grudges, last year. What is it that made it so hard for me to change, a year sooner, in 2008? It would have been easy, to stop spiking that hair, of mine and to see my parents, more often, in 2008. Why couldn't I do it. Sure, I was hurt by another member, here, but that was no reason, to turn against the finer things from the 60s, in the January, of 2007. All that I had to do, was sit down, and listen to The Kinks. I was too angry to do that, in 2008.

If the moderators feel, that this should be moved into The Haven, they can move it. However, I think that problems with change, is strongly related to autism spectrum disorders. I just feel that I've missed out on a lot, by not changing, a year, sooner. If I've started a thread, like this, I know that I'm going to stay a 60s loving Mod.

Don't feel guilty. It's difficult for those of us on the spectrum to deal with change. Sometimes I feel a little bad for not becoming a fan of Johnny Depp/Tim Burton movies sooner, but I just wasn't ready to start appreciating them at that time. You weren't ready to become a Mod back then, but now you are. There's nothing wrong with that. We grow and change at our own pace, not anyone else's.

In retrospect, most changes I've made in my life seem to have taken a lot longer than they really could have. I don't know why that is.

If you've made a change for the better, then that's the important thing. Don't beat yourself up that you didn't do it sooner.

Thank you, you guys. I guess that I was in a silly mood.

Better late than never.

There is a time. Before is no good, even if it looks that way in hindsight. After is too late.

There are things - why did I not see this then, say that there, understand that expression.

But you have to go on the track.

Be certain - your move was timed RIGHT

Change comes in its own time... it can't be forced. What counts is you are happy now.

I guess that I've had a taste of the good life, and I wish that it would have happened, sooner. I've also learned that change happens, when it happens. All that matters, is that I'm living the good life today, and that I'm happy, now.

I doubt it's worth feeling guilty over things you could have done sooner, but I do as well.

For me, it's the realization that if I only knew sooner what I know now, I could have made a change before so much damage was done. Yeah, I know I didn't know then what I know now, but it eats at me. Often to the point of obsession.

I feel similar to this. My main thoughts about these feelings are that I sort of "see" what I did wrong, now.. What I wish is that I was able to see that much earlier, to avoid doing it so many times over again... now I'm trying desperately to deconstruct the habits that took me into so much despair.

It's a little more like the image of a caterpillar enclosing itself in a cocoon in order to go through the metamorphosis to emerge as a butterfly. The caterpillar doesn't say: "well, now i'm going to climb into this cocoon and come out a butterfly" It's just an inevitable process.

Ram Dass

While I'm not sure of "what" exactly I am, I identify with that strongly--especially when I look back at how I was in college and high school, and the things I wish I had not gotten myself into. I wish I had been better able to see myself and what I was doing that had to be SO offputting.