I had this weird attack today & I'm not sure if it would be classified as a panic attack or not?
It started off with a friend hugging me w/o warning me & I did my usual flinch/pull away thing cause I hate being touched. I than left to go the bathroom & calm down. I went back to dinner to drink some tea & water & try to stay awake b/c for some reason sudden physical contact can drain me to the point where I want to collapse (but sleeping afterwards would probably be bad). I didn't want to be alone at this point b/c I thought I'd fall asleep or something while alone it could've been bad. I also felt like I was going to vomit & just out of it. I was okay until two people fell on me & I started to withdraw again. Than I went back to my room & by the time I got back I was crying & only managed to stay standing b/c I needed to pee that badly (GO H2O + TEA!! !)
. Than I was shaking & switched from a skirt to pants somehow before I collapsed crying in bed for... anywhere from 1-10 minutes I have no idea. I ended up calling a friend while crying b/c I was so disoriented that I couldn't get out of bed (my legs wouldn't of worked) & was having lower abdominal cramps. I recovered afterwards by talking to said friend & someone else (he wasn't familiar w/ panic attacks) & afterwards laid in bed in the dark w/ some music playing for about twenty minutes. Now I'm just drained & not sure what to call this b/c I kept trying to fight the attack off (I could feel myself losing it after the 1st hug) for over an hour & finally lost it...
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