PangeLingua wrote:
If your ability to make facial expressions and control vocal intonation is being affected, that also seems to suggest that some of your cognitive faculties are shutting down.
i very nearly lose ability to speak when under particular sorts of stress. i always thought of it as a stage fright sort of thing. for example when i suddenly find myself with an audience, or put on the spot in any way. and when trying to identify and articulate intense feelings. i think this must be a type of shutdown.
also i can't control my facial expressions and when i try to produce anything in particular my face feels frozen or i will get a tic. when i was still in school i would get a facial tic when i had to speak in front of the class. still get it sometimes when trying to smile for a photo or something, or even if just trying to hold my face or head still. i will start shaking from the neck up.
i don't think speaking comes very naturally to me. if i don't leave my apartment or interact with anyone for a few days i seem to lose the ability to talk fluidly to anyone else, like a muscle atrophying if i don't use it all the time. and my ability to process words (speaking, hearing, or reading) is the first thing to get muddy when i'm overwhelmed by sensory input. also weirdly i have trouble putting words together if i can't see (eyes closed, or glasses off)
when relaxed i can jabber quickly and speak too fast / mumbly for people to understand. then when overexcited i will occasionally stutter. i do manage to talk normally most of the time, but almost anything can interfere with it.
i know someone who is certainly NT who has trouble speaking (very noticeably) when a little nervous. she then starts to put her words in a weird order. i think it's a little different with her - she worries about coming across coherently and overthinks what she is going to say.
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