My name is Joshua
I am 25 years old, living in australia with my parents, and was diagnosed with aspergers in April of this year. Understandably I am still trying to come to terms with it.
My communication skills are great I can look someone in the eye when talking to them
My imagination skills are great
My social skills are horrible, I don't drink, I gamble, and I love downloading movies and tv shows.
My anti depressants are meditation, getting out of the house to go see friends (not for too long) or maybe go to a shopping center, aquarium or go to the movies by myself
I cannot get any money from the government, and my dad supports me
I am unemployed and have been for quite some time, I have had jobs but nothing that has been permanent. I am desperate for work but very picky and I refuse to do the things my brain will not allow me to do such as cleaning, waitering, those kind of service jobs. I am volunteering at the moment, but can't stand it because you don't get paid to volunteer
I am with a job company and they are applying for me, and I have a course for a teachers aide setup next year, but I still find myself by myself, not doing anything, and watching the time fly by. As usual there are hundreds of people just like me in similar positions, so there is competition everywhere even for jobs.
My real problem is post traumatic stress in the form of not being able to apply for jobs, kind of like a giant brick wall that never comes down whenever I try to write a cover letter or cv, telling me I am good at this, and the amount of rejections I have gotten in the past is too huge to count. I feel like I am stuck in limbo constantly with nothing to do in the interim period. I am not on any medication, there is no medication for frustration.
What can I do to pass the time other then downloading, reading, shopping centers, listening to music, and going to the movies.