Scanner wrote:
Earlier today I went to the store and two boys said that I walk very stiff and I'm like a robot, they didn't know me and I didn't know them. This is the second time it's happened.
I don't have a good walk, I have to calculate everything. My eyes are usually glued to the ground so I don't have to look at peoples faces and I can see what's coming ahead and what I should avoid. My gait is just odd, I also am very clumsy and walking around, especially when other people are out, if an ordeal. It's not bad in the city where I can blend into a crowd and no one looks at me, but on a small residential block with only me and a few others outside, it's quite easy to see.
I've been mocked in public for my facial expressions, smiles, and spacing off. It's really quite annoying, it makes me want to go out even less than what I do now, which isn't much.
Yes I can relate to this. I have a bit of an odd clumsy gate too. I have had peolple mock my facial expressions and the way I walk as well.
And it does seem they want you to see and feel the rejection, as if to eject us from society. As a result, just like you I avoid going out because of it too. It's a vicious circle, the more I go out and experience the mocking, the more self conscious I become. And then the more self conscious I become, the more clumsy I become because you start to dwell on it. I have started standing up to them now though and not taking threir crap. staring back and having somthing to say back to them. Since I started doing this I am feeling more confident and is becoming less of a problem for me. If you don't stand up to people they think they can walk in our faces. Its hard to stand up to them I know, but harder if we don't.
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