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05 Nov 2010, 5:01 pm

just want some answrs here



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05 Nov 2010, 5:13 pm

I'm happy to be alive, I've adjusted quite well to the world as an autistic person, and I'm proud that I look like Mick Avory. This is directed at everyone. I can't really be proud of my genes, so I said that I'm proud of something that makes sense. To the OP. I know that guy's a little before your time. I also really am happy to be alive.


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05 Nov 2010, 5:13 pm

Often. All of my problems could have been avoided if I just hadn't been born. I don't actually want to kill myself, but I do wish that I had never been born.



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05 Nov 2010, 5:16 pm

Squirrelrat wrote:
Often. All of my problems could have been avoided if I just hadn't been born. I don't actually want to kill myself, but I do wish that I had never been born.


I felt the same way when I was your age. I hope things get easier for you, like they did for me.


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05 Nov 2010, 5:18 pm

I felt that way as a pre teen.



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05 Nov 2010, 5:21 pm

Sometimes I've wished the world didn't exist. I enjoy too many things too much to wish I never existed, though. It can be really hard, but I've never doubted myself. It isn't my fault if the world has made itself too confusing -- I still want to be around to do my thing. :]



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05 Nov 2010, 5:24 pm

I think about it at least once a week, since many years ago. If I could change something in my life, I wish I was aborted.
But it's important to say, I consider AS 33% of the surreal burden I have.


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05 Nov 2010, 5:28 pm

About every day. Especially before my birthday and on the very day (thanks God it's over now for a whole year ahead :D)

Though, most of the time I think how gladly I would give my own life so that my brother could be alive today instead of me.
He was a very nice NT person who was ill almost all his life and died before turning 25.
Would have been much more right if he had a long life - I am sure he would live it well - and I was simply never born.



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05 Nov 2010, 5:32 pm

Yes I do. I often wish my mother would've aborted me. I wouldn't have missed anything simply by virtue of the fact that i'd be oblivious to existence altogether. I would've missed out on a lifetime of inexpressible pain though. :(
I'm just being honest here....my life has hardly been a joy and I truly have no idea if it would've been better had I done anything differently. Still trying though....but the hour is growing rather late at 41. :pale:



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05 Nov 2010, 5:37 pm

I stopped feeling that way when I stopped trying to "connect" with NTs.



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05 Nov 2010, 5:41 pm

<-- has been suicidal several times, the last time in August

My self-perception is all messed up -.-
I can enjoy life and I do. It only takes very little to make me happy and confident... and only very little to make me stressed and depressive.



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05 Nov 2010, 5:44 pm

For whatever reason....I felt compelled to post this sublime epic by Deep Purple in this thread.




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05 Nov 2010, 5:47 pm

I don't want suicide. Maybe it would be better if I was never born.


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05 Nov 2010, 5:49 pm

Pobodys_Nerfect wrote:
I stopped feeling that way when I stopped trying to "connect" with NTs.


That's the same with me. I'm now happy to be alive.


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05 Nov 2010, 6:13 pm

Corp900 wrote:
just want some answrs here


The most complete version of this sentiment would be that my existence had never even been conceived of by God. And, yes, I have felt that. But it is a wholly and irrevocably selfish sentiment, a desire that cannot ever be fulfilled. So I put it aside and tried other avenues of thought.



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05 Nov 2010, 6:15 pm

I wish I never exisited. A lot of people have been hurt by me. I am not sorry for what I have done, but they sure as hell were.