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Date: Mon, 19 Jun 2006 20:51:44 -0700 (PDT)

By June 31st:

$140 toward All-Star #48, A&C #2 and #27

$100 bill towards a 3 $100 bill target to complete as much as possible:
a)...2 Green Hornet online purchases (#27 and #30) in 2.0 or less grade
b)...Replacement #496 Green Hornet Four Color
c)...Last located A&C (#1)
d)...Green Hornet Big Little Book

The reasoning for a collection is that it doesn't judge or ignore me and with
minimal maintaince It isn't as hollow as a empty coffee shop visit. $20 in
coffee shops(hollow) can be feel good conclusions in my collection. Something
to look forward to and to live for.

Learned through trial and error buses #10, 6, #11 that cover
many locations. They also cross the Hennepin bridge area
bridges, Dinky Town, and 1/2 price Books way up in North Town Mall.

Discovered the Nostalgia Books(comics) alternative to Midway Books
in Mid-Town, St.Paul.

Found infinite loneliness from within that affects my ever changing soroundings
thus stopped blaming others or places for this infinite silence that I cannot express.
This is a improvement that mainly allows understanding, but not solutions.

Luskin visits are limited this month so I can experience a level of accomplishment
and self-understanding(without whining or complaining; but instead understanding and thus start the healing through Luskin.

My visits with BeeBee are greatly appreciated since I tend to not find solance within myself or with being around others(mostly annoyance due to not being able to communicate or conversate). Thus Luskin time should be one that allows me
time to explore my angers and annoyances and improve past them, too bad I am not a great listener. I try.

I have settled nicely in my apartment and have seen food stamps(though that doesn't solve my communication loneliness) and understand that indirectly finding
other routes of exits and arrivals to the apartment and places people meet has
become a positive result from my routine based assult that came from me not breaking patterns in the 26th to 28th and Nicollet area I got stuck in earlier on.

I am glad to have Nicolleta(main social worker) who see's the error in being rejected in cash aide while waiting for Social Security. I hope Barbara Luskin
has faxed the WAIS

The WAIS would have been unconcluded if I hadn't sold my first random comics
issues and went to the psychology clinic in Apple Valley. It was informative and
honestly descriptive(also consistent to what I and others have observed). It
served as a effective 2nd opinion. I had to (what I call Badger out of annoyance)
get Gary Scherry to produce the results as of the day after the comics sale.

My second misclanteous comics sale allowed me to see bus #11 stops at 40th
Street in the North Town Mall Direction. Also see other parts of Minneapolis
outside the main Downtown. Thus the assult paid off in silent but effective
gains in areas learned about. I know can say I am well on the way to see good
things happen and parts and pieces seeing conclusions(incompleted comics
projects, Food aide, cash aide and hopefully the SSI(?).)

I am hoping to see cash aide by 7/10(when the $152 food stamps happen).
$200 + $100 covers my Green Hornet holes and Abbott and Costello holes
that can be filled here. I do not say hanging out here and spending empty cash.
I have learned regardless of cash or no cash, my soda refills are just as empty
emotionally at most places. I am not sure whether being aware of autism has
made this more accute or worse(the loneliness and not wanting to communicate
due to understanding how I have been chucked out of places do to this weak
communication skill).

I found a small christian art community near my house. They are cool and
may offer a good source for art(video and ink) displaying? Otherwise I also
learned to keep myself a mystery as others do to me so there is much in a
period of to keep communication flowing(suggested by Luskin and tested at
the art studio).

As it stands now, I am weening myself from 26th and Nicollet since Bad Waitress
employees have cut me off on multiple refills and suggested I don't come here as often thus I Have found the courage to explore. The habit of staying in one place is a bad one, and since I am not being kicked out and know better to be here at the
Bad Waitress! Loneliness still prevails but learned my venoumous mistakes to the best of my ability here at Bad Waitress.

Overall I am not in a bad spot as I would have been if I hadn't seen Luskin and tried to tame my reactive urges. I should thank her for this, and let her help the growing process. I cancelled tommorows appointment but will try to reschedule for the 22nd( or before the autism meetiing)

Here are my most recent Garage Band 2 music releases:
I make my own music and post them online as possible. But I really don't
expect anyone on this site to notice since my hobbies and interests don't
seem to reflect your interests, nor do I know how to talk to you folks.

If you chose to view:



This is a Cinematic type track:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ebvvKNI-0z8


This is a corny and B-Film type track:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fmBZAgfebmE

Sincerely, a ghostly distant voice

Ghosthunter

Ghosthunter, nice to see you. Have wondered where you have been and what you've been up to. Thanks for posting.

Hi, GH.

It was nice seeing you yesterday.

Is the fewer visits your idea or Dr. Luskins? She seems to know what she is doing.

I'm sorry you are so lonely but glad that you are having some luck in finding outlets for yourself such as the Christian Art House and busses that lead to new findings. I think it really is a step forward to realize that the lonelyness comes from inside rather than a specific place or other people. It doesn't solve anything, true, but its a first step. Once you know the issue, and and Dr. Luskin can work on solutions.

Take care!

BeeBee

Hello GH,

Dr. Luskin will not be able to meet with you before the group meeting as she has another meeting before that (don't ask how I know, just trust me )

In any case, one thing you can do to keep from incuring problems such as those you experienced at the Bad Waitress is to look for enough places to hang out to be able to rotate them so that they do not see you as much. Also, you have to try to be unpredicatable. For example, I do like to sit at B&N and read books while eating one of their delicious treats. I cannot use the rotation idea because there are not enough places on Rochester but once in a while, if I have the money, I will purchase a book from B&N. It is enough to keep from incuring the wrath of the store manager and as such allows me to enjoy my reading there (would like to save up $150 for the Calvin and Hobbes book set however).