Saturday nights are movie nights in my parents' house, and we decided to watch something different than just Disney movies, a TV movie version of "The Scarlet Pimpernel" from 1982, per my mother's insistence. However, it cost $3 to buy on YouTube, and it was hard to follow. Plus, the No Kings protest went on earlier. It was hard to follow, with me looking it up on Wikipedia, but my parents misinterpreted it as me not watching it, which I didn't really, but I was too afraid to say so, for fear of upsetting them. So they constantly explained what was happening so I understood, which was irritating and distracting. Eventually, I left to use the bathroom and get away from their yammering. They decided to pause and wait for me to return since it was important not to miss anything. I told them not, but they insisted that I couldn't miss anything (they don't pause movies in a theater or when it's on TV). They again insisted that I should just say so if I didn't want to see and that they'd repay me for it, since I spent money on it. I couldn't stand it anymore and I demanded to be repaid immediately. They got mad at me and accused me of being a brat and that I thought I didn't trust them to repay me (YouTube payments come out of my phone bill). My mom yelled that I apparently have the run of the place whenever I visit (I moved out a few years ago, but visited on weekends) and that we'll only watch things that I want. Now she's giving me the silent treatment, which frankly I kind of deserved after my blowup, and I feel very bad about myself. Even my father took her side. Now I feel terrible and it cost me a good night sleep. My father insists that everything will be all right, but even though my mother did speak to me yesterday, she was speaking in a sullen monotone and slamming items around.
I'm just glad I'm not a child anymore and now living on my own, or I would have been grounded. I'm afraid also of approaching my mom to speak to her. I've spoken to my father, who I always reach out to for emotional support or help, but almost never my mother.
Today, 1:02 pm
