Well it's official
The psychologist agrees that I meet the criteria for an ASD. He will be putting this in writing so I can put it on file in the Human Resource department of my employer. The distinction between HFA and Asperger's is rather academic at this stage in my life, but I feel HFA is the more correct DX based on extrapolating present and clearly remembered behaviors and symptom backwards into pre-narrative memories would suggest that I have always had the requisite developmental issues.
I guess the real question is what do I do with this knowledge? It feels like a large piece of reality has come into sharp focus with a subsequent flood of input that needs to be processed.
I have both trepidation and a sense that I have a real chance at making appropriate changes in my interactions with people and life in general.
I think 2011 is going to me a very interesting year.
_________________
When God made me He didn't use a mold. I'm FREEHAND baby!
The road to my hell is paved with your good intentions.
Now I guess you're officially... exactly what you were to begin with. And now you officially know... exactly what you'd already guessed.
I'd say I'm glad to welcome you to our ranks, but, really, has anything changed?
Congratulations.
_________________
I'm using a non-verbal right now. I wish you could see it. --dyingofpoetry
NOT A DOCTOR
LOL. Of course you are all correct. Nothing has changed about my brain. Only my understanding of it. A new set of tools for exploring my world.
It's a weird thing, paradoxically needing to have a written DX at the same time not exactly caring about it.
_________________
When God made me He didn't use a mold. I'm FREEHAND baby!
The road to my hell is paved with your good intentions.
Verdandi
Veteran
Joined: 7 Dec 2010
Age: 56
Gender: Female
Posts: 12,275
Location: University of California Sunnydale (fictional location - Real location Olympia, WA)
I guess the real question is what do I do with this knowledge? It feels like a large piece of reality has come into sharp focus with a subsequent flood of input that needs to be processed.
I have both trepidation and a sense that I have a real chance at making appropriate changes in my interactions with people and life in general.
I think 2011 is going to me a very interesting year.
Psychologists use disorders to make money, its using ppl for $$$$ i think.
They spend their crummy low lives making a living out of another persons vulnerability / imformity, sometimes they just fill in the pages just to build their own crummy careers, I dont believe a word they say, they are plain scorpions, fitted with a sting at their graduation ready to give their poison,, there is a few occupations that I'm uncomfortable with, Property Managers, Estate Agents, Psychologists, but they be treated no diff.
Cant they find a job that more beneficial.
Last edited by woodss82 on 06 Jan 2011, 10:00 am, edited 1 time in total.
Everyone will treat you as they always have. If you respond differently, it'll confuse them.
To the extent that they have information on how to get along with you, and have the goodwill to want to, they'll be trying to modify their natural responses. We know how easy that is. Those with less information may be interested, suspicious or hostile. You'll have to deal with that. After a couple of years you'll be wishing you'd never mentioned it, but persist.
There's an entire population of unknowing aspies threaded through our community. They and their families make up a significant part of social resistance to change, and they're all hidden. Autism is often perceived as a threat, and deserving of hostility, passive resistance or indifference.
We have (well, I think we have) to develop and practice good relations with NT communities, good ways of identifying and helping kids, ways to help people into good life alignments and make a crashpad of good news and feeling about diagnosis to catch the rest of us as they catch on. We're a long way from any of that yet.
It's a weird thing, paradoxically needing to have a written DX at the same time not exactly caring about it.
I can understand this. I plan to meet with a therapist and see if I can be tested next week. The only reason I want to be tested is so I can access resources that I do not currently have the ability to on my own, such as Occupational Therapy (so I can figure out how to deal with my coworkers and supervisor) and possibly Community Living Support (help me figure out how to organize my life so I don't feel so overwhelmed by tasks that should be simple to others).
Other than accessing support services, I really do not see anything major changing. I will still be me, just hopefully a little less stressed.
_________________
If I tell you I'm unique, and you say, "Yeah, we all are," you've missed the whole point.
••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••
RAADS-R: 187.0
Language: 15.0 • Social Relatedness: 81.0 • Sensory/Motor: 52.0 • Circumscribed Interests: 40.0
Your neurodiverse (Aspie) score: 165 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 47 of 200
You are very likely neurodiverse (Aspie)
They spend their crummy low lives making a living out of another persons vulnerability / imformity, sometimes they just fill in the pages just to build their own crummy careers, I dont believe a word they say, they are plain scorpions, fitted with a sting at their graduation ready to give their poison, As a service technician I wouldn't be very nice to them, there is a few occupations that I hate, Property Managers, Estate Agents, Psychologists.
Cant they find a job that more beneficial.
Well in this case I used the psychologist. I went for my own reasons, having fully researched the issues and pretty much TOLD him what the diagnosis should be. I wasn't rude or anything, but we systematically went through it and I pretty much laid out the evidence in a manner that would have been difficult to challenge. I'm certain he has had few clients that have taken this approach. And he was actually a very good listener,
Not all psychologists are putzes.
_________________
When God made me He didn't use a mold. I'm FREEHAND baby!
The road to my hell is paved with your good intentions.
This is part of what has brought this about. I have been responding differently. I sort of burned out on keeping up the facade of "normal".
Those that care will be fine. Those that don't care can, in the words of Bender, "Kiss my shiny metal ass". I've developed a very thick skin towards the jerks of the world.
Can't say much about what is in my community. I don't participate much. It's a Spectrum thing. My social life is rather sparse. I participate actively in this forum only because it puts a layer between me and real life interaction.
Yup.
_________________
When God made me He didn't use a mold. I'm FREEHAND baby!
The road to my hell is paved with your good intentions.
They spend their crummy low lives making a living out of another persons vulnerability / imformity, sometimes they just fill in the pages just to build their own crummy careers, I dont believe a word they say, they are plain scorpions, fitted with a sting at their graduation ready to give their poison, As a service technician I wouldn't be very nice to them, there is a few occupations that I hate, Property Managers, Estate Agents, Psychologists.
Cant they find a job that more beneficial.
Well in this case I used the psychologist. I went for my own reasons, having fully researched the issues and pretty much TOLD him what the diagnosis should be. I wasn't rude or anything, but we systematically went through it and I pretty much laid out the evidence in a manner that would have been difficult to challenge. I'm certain he has had few clients that have taken this approach. And he was actually a very good listener,
Not all psychologists are putzes.
Of course are they are putzes, they all want their dough and they get good cash too, thats why they invented these disorders and label the poor folks
They spend their crummy low lives making a living out of another persons vulnerability / imformity, sometimes they just fill in the pages just to build their own crummy careers, I dont believe a word they say, they are plain scorpions, fitted with a sting at their graduation ready to give their poison, As a service technician I wouldn't be very nice to them, there is a few occupations that I hate, Property Managers, Estate Agents, Psychologists.
Cant they find a job that more beneficial.
the vast majority of professions make money off other people. if they couldnt make a living at it, why would anyone do it? we all have to eat. i doubt psychologists make much off autistic diagnosis anyway, since most autistics dont continue receiving services after the diagnosis. there is no impetus for them to falsify a diagnosis, since there is no ongoing treatment, and they get paid either way for the diagnostic services.
but hey, dont take my opinion to heart, since i am of the hated property manager category. excuse me while i get back to work trying to make money off people so that i can feed my autistic family.
_________________
Neurotypically confused.
partner to: D - 40 yrs med dx classic autism
mother to 3 sons:
K - 6 yrs med/school dx classic autism
C - 8 yrs NT
N - 15 yrs school dx AS
I was a tenant, and my property manager gave me a living hell, If I didn't buy a house I would lost the lot, there is some nice ones i admit, but we got to eat but I picked a profession that makes a decent dollar, I really think property management industry is sick of tenants messing up houses, by the way, I seen really horrid stories, the house I was renting, I was using it to run a business to help pay the rent, I was a college student at the time, and the business was starting up, it was nearly there as well before the prop mgr interfered with it.
I would have lost everything because of a clash between a property manager and me, and my business would have collapsed, But I had enough surplus to buy a home with a mortgage and now finished college last year with two info tech diplomas.
Happy ending, prop mgr pushed me into buying a home
.
Last edited by woodss82 on 06 Jan 2011, 10:00 am, edited 3 times in total.
Then you coming here, calling your self an aspie, when clearly, by your reasoning, Asperger's along with all other diagnoses are nothing but fabrications, means you, along with all of us other dupes, are wasting precious time discussing ASD related issues.
I mean, it's all made up crap, foisted on us by all of the leeches in the mental health profession, right?
_________________
When God made me He didn't use a mold. I'm FREEHAND baby!
The road to my hell is paved with your good intentions.
Then you coming here, calling your self an aspie, when clearly, by your reasoning, Asperger's along with all other diagnoses are nothing but fabrications, from hanging around with Aspies, but most cases are not fabricated, means you, along with all of us other dupes, are wasting precious time discussing ASD related issues.
I mean, it's all made up crap, foisted on us by all of the leeches in the mental health profession, right?
I am trying to fabricate a theory, if a NT infant, socially isolated during its development, that it can have the similar social problems as a Aspie, it can be a fabrication I strongly believe we are not born with social skills we develop them, but true Aspies are wired differently, making learning them more difficult.
I saw a child on Oprah like a few months ago having this same situation, socially isolated from day one, her developmental range was near Autistic and she was born a NT
the mental health professionals know, they have to get paid, why dont they get a better more constructive job.
