I've been trying to get a grip on the cause of my performance anxiety. I was wondering if there's anyone that might offer some input because my psychiatrist seems to be at a standstill. He diagnosed me with GAD but I'm pretty sure I have performance anxiety. Is it possible that my performance anxiety at my job is actually rational? I mean, is it possible, that even though others seems to think that I'm capable of doing my job, deep down inside I know it's beyond my capacity due to my Aspie-type characteristics: poor verbal memory, excutive function problems, social ineptness and sensory sensitivity issues?
It's so hard for me to separate these issues because I do seem to have characteristics of both and I don't want to look like I'm just looking for an escape route to not go back to my work. Plus my wife would go nuts since I've spent 5 years and probably close to $100,000 in education costs But at the same time, I can't keep torturing myself to keep trying something that I just may not be able to handle.