A powerful and graphic video about having AS

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I just came across this YT video, I thought that it was exceptionally well done. What do you think?

The writing is hard to read in places, I found that watching it full screen helped

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2vbhGLXlLvo[/youtube]

I couldn't stand the constant crying in the video and only got half way through it.

If I keep watching I'll get a migraine.

Not my experience.

I have to agree with the above. It's pretty torturous.

The underlying message was okay but the cying and screaching noises were too much for me.

I'm quite the opposite. I'm a very happy person. I preceive the world in a more normal manner and I don't like how the video makes AS out to be an illness, when it's not.

That was powerful. It looks like it was made for for an NT. The noises sound like what I hear in my head constantly and the crying, well I can't explain it, but it really worked with the video.
Yes it might be annoying for us with sensitive hearing but just think of what the maker of the video is trying to get across. A lot of people think we're brats or overreactors when we cry but we really can't help it. I get yelled at a lot still for breaking down at the most random moments. 'Why get upset about that?' they ask me and I just shutdown.

Those words written down hit me hard, especially the sister part. I'd love to make something like this to get people to understand me more.

I like this. And I don't think AS itself is an illness per se, but I've personally developed severe mental illness, largely because of abuse I endured as a child, for not behaving like I was "supposed to". Having Asperger's and growing up in a redneck s**thole town with an extremely narrow minded family is damaging, to say the least.

That's all fine but I couldn't even see the words through all the rainbow zippy lines and stuff, and the flashing and light/dark contrast very nearly set off a migraine if not worse. So I have zero idea what was even said in the video, what the point of it was, etc. because I had to get away before it did violence to my brain (which could then go and do violence to the rest of my body including my stomach if I'd stayed around).

Here follows the text of the video for those who can't read it:

I'm not like everyone else. Every day I feel as if I'm on a different planet-- an outsider looking in on a world I'm caught up in but never fully understand. Small things that are silly or irrelevant for others will fascinate me for hours. I need my routine to stay in control. Things are my source of comfort and understanding, rather than people. I've always found it hard to make friends and even struggle relating to my own family. Apparently people aren't really for me. It's not that I don't have any feeling for them or don't ever want to be near them, but the ideas of being touched, of being held, of opening up, are frightening to me. When things get too much I either retreat completely into my shell or react way dramatically, which makes other people mad, but I can't help it if I see things in my own way. How can I explain myself to them when they constantly misunderstand me and just think of me as a self-centered oddball who makes life difficult? It's the deepest and most painful kind of injury possible. My parents love me but can't hide their despair at not being able to get through to me, so what should be my rock of stability is already unstable. I often think that my sister hates me; I don't know how well she understands my way of thinking, but she perceives it as having dominated her life for many years, and resents me for making her live with it, which she has every right to, but that still doesn't make it any easier.

hates me. ["hates me" is repeated here six times]

What makes it worse is that I'm completely helpless over it-- what can I do and how can I get through? Reaching out is so far against my nature, so how can I then ask others to reach out to me? There is no more intense loneliness than being trapped inside your own head, and this is something that people like me have to deal with every single day. I am NOT a stone-hearted problem factory, I am not a weirdo, and I am not out for mounds of attention and pity. All I want is to be understood. That's all. Nothing more, nothing less.

i got 30 seconds into the video before i gave up trying to watch it.

it is a screeching and cacophonous gobbledegook of sensations that spring from the mind of a troubled person.

i am calm and collected and serene and placid in my own world, and the video is of someone who is neurally stripped of the capacity for complacency.

whatever they are trying to convey is a dramatized shamozzle of sensory buffeting, and i can assure you that i have attained an equilibrium of settlement within my routine of experience that magically cancels out the discontinuum of the external world.

i am me and i live inside a thick walled castle of consciousness and all the raging and concerted protests that people wail about are but distant muffled sounds to my ear as i go to sleep in my satisfaction that i have done all i can do to complete my days demands.


i am so glad i have no anxiety. it looks horrid to be imprisoned in a world where one can not go to sleep happy.

I think maybe most of us are missing the point. I don't think the vid was meant to educate us. I think it was meant to educate NT's, and as such was made inentionally to cause sensory overload, even for those that don't normally have issues with it.

An attempt to induce empathy, I think.

I stopped it about two seconds into it, and just scanned through it. Too much for me too, but we really don't need to be shown what it's like. We already know.

It would be interesting to hear from some NT's.

Come to think of it, maybe some NT's have already piped in? And couldn't take it?

If so, consider this. YOU get to hit a stop button. Aspies never have a stop or pause button. This can sometimes, for some of us, be what life is like.

Fun, huh?

I watched a few seconds of it. WTF was that? Some kid making noises in some kind of dark environment. Weird

That was annoying so I turned the sound down but I do not like dark screens like that.

I wonder if there are any non spectrum people who also wouldn't be able to stand this? I hope some NTs here will reply.