I wish I have Asperger's

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Until I was diagnosed with Asperger's/autism, I used to think I was the only person in the world who could possibly think the way I did. I didn't understand why I was the way I was. I always preferred my interests to socializing, and I saw that nearly everyone else around me socialized. However, I enjoyed the way I was---and I still do.

I realized it was eccentric that I would sit around in my free time and make endless lists of statistics on my interests while others were out engaging in social activities. But again, I was enjoying it---but I didn't understand why I was this way.

Whereas a lot of people would like to trade their autism away, I would never trade my autism away. I thank God I was made autistic. I enjoy it---although there are plenty of challenges---but doesn't everyone have challenges?

Autism has allowed me exciting interests and talents. I am a talent skill autistic savant. In fact, at least 10% of autistics have savant skills. I can play any musical instrument I become fascinated with in little time and without lessons. And, I can memorize great amounts of statistics related to my interests---like roller coasters.

For me, autism creates within me a highly concentrated focus beam into my interests. And because of my great focus, I prefer not to socialize (and socializing is awkward for me and often very overwhelming). Certain sounds, lights, and other sensory things can cause me challenges. I have to have certain amounts of private time in order to refuel myself.

So even though there are challenges, I enjoy being autistic. If reincarnation exists, I pray I come back autistic in the next life---and hopefully with the same interests.

I'm with Glider18 on this one, and to respond to Cornflake's negative assessment:

Did someone just give you an extremely difficulty, technical, and interesting problem to solve? Awesome, because you're going to be happiest tucked away concentrating on the best solution and it'll come easy to you because you can just sift through thoughts and ideas like nothing.

Lonely on a Friday night? No, you're not. You're glad to be alone because you can get to cracking on the 78 things that you find totally awesome and wouldn't have enough time for if you had 10 lives to live.

Bored? No, you're not. You don't really even know how that would feel.

Having problems remembering if that sign 20 miles back said to go left or right? Oh, no, you're not. A picture is in your head and so you just pull that up and look at it, getting your answer.

Need to read a quote from a book you just read? No trouble finding it, you can remember the exact spot on the page it was on and which side of the book. You flip through staring at that spot and a few moments later the quote is right there for you.

Is your car making a funny noise? No trouble, even if you're not the mechanic type, your logic is strong and with some quick research and solid reasoning you'll probably have a fair idea of where it's coming from and whether it's a serious problem or not.

Do you need a friend to edit your essays? Not anymore, your writing is strong and in fact you feel as though the only way to really express yourself is by banging out words on a keyboard.

Have a crazy ex who won't leave you alone and harasses your current significant other? No, because you'd never have even talked to that person in the first place because they freaked you out.

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I'm not saying it's all golden cherries here, but I would never, ever give up Asperger's. It's *who I am*. I can't even conceive of being a social extrovert who gets recharged by hanging out in a loud bar and discussing this week's soap opera (oh, they are all soap operas).

I think the OP is right, it's better over here.

And a significant chance of your not really minding that. Most Aspies aren't asexual, but most asexuals are Aspies.

There are parts I would never give up in a million years. There are parts I hate but also wouldn't give up because they go with things I wouldn't give up. And then there are the parts that make me want to bang my head against a wall. (And then there's the part where that's not hyperbole.)

But none of what people on this thread are saying is guaranteed. Like, I get bored easily and often have no clue what a sign 20 miles back said. Of course, I can also joke around with friends. Of course, I have to opt for some nontraditional strategies. Go for misfits, go for people who belong to a different social hierarchy, go for very nice people, meet with people one-on-one rather than in groups. NEVER try to befriend the alpha of your peer group (I learned that the hard way). I love talking to people... every once in a while. But like sugar, too much isn't healthy.

I would love to be NT! It would be absolutely awesome! But only for a little while. I don't think I would want to live another way, but I'm curious. I recognize that NTs have experiences that give their lives meaning and fill them with awe and wonder and joy, but which I will never experience. (But I have my own joys NTs will never know.) It would be really great to experience those things (and the other parts, too), but not worth permanently giving up everything I know and love.

Some Aspies find that grocery stores are hell on earth. I derive such an incredible enjoyment from a certain one... I'm really hoping it can stay in business... funny how intense a love that can be. But it does have a dark side: a cafe I went to a few times changed hands. I was so incredibly disappointed when I went there and found out it could never, ever be the same. AAAAAARRRGGGHHHH!! !! NOOOOOOOOO!! !! ! But then, have you ever derived pleasure from the mere fact that you've been sitting in the same position for a while, or that you're making exactly the same repetitive motion over and over again? I wouldn't give this up, but I do recognize that life would be worth living without it.

buy a calculator...get some books..learn

you dont want to be a tool.
speaking from being one

this may be a first for autism but this is not a new phenominom.have your heard of body identity integrity disorder.this means people who want to be disabled usualy amputees and paraplegics.i have seen post on non specific disability forums where people amputated there own limbs.there is a website that specializes in this called transabled.org

this may be a first for autism but this is not a new phenominom.have your heard of body identity integrity disorder.this means people who want to be disabled usualy amputees and paraplegics.i have seen post on non specific disability forums where people amputated there own limbs.there is a website that specializes in this called transabled.org

I think it's awesome that you think like that, It's kind of mental harmony. It's a trait that I really respect in NT's and am also rather jealous of. I'm open and closed minded, its a contradiction of which confuses me at the best of times.

Maybe you're like a super NT all of the good traits of a Neurotypical but with the diverse mind of Aspergian. :oD