Is there such a thing as a mini shutdown?

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I definetly used to have what I would consider to be meltdowns but not anymore.

I was thinking I have never had shutdowns, then when I was thinking about things I realised a few things that I was confused about may be explained by a mini version of a shutdown..2 examples:

1-Someone comforted me I froze, the room went blurry and I lost memory until the person was gone, I still felt a bit blurry for a while afterwards.

2-I went to an event which was fine until near the end then it all started to get too hectic and I felt very conspicuous eventually I felt like I wasn't there, like the world went all blurry and surreal. I still spoke but only when spoken to and I didnt think at the time what I was saying and had no connection to it, when I got home and sat down with a cup of tea I looked back and remember some things I said and really cringed, I would never have said it if I was focussed, it wasn't bad just thoughtless and I felt really stupid for weeks aferwards. When someone asked me a question about the event because they had seen me there and I had no idea they had been there I just tried to explain that it had got hectic and all gone a bit blurry (hadn't heard of shutdowns or as then), they looked at me like I was odd funnily enough.

Not sure if its similar to your but i sometimes get blackouts, like lost time, i dont notice them unless people tell me.

Sometimes when I get very anxious my brain turns into mush, I couldn't even think of a guy's name I've worked with for 10 years for a couple minutes a few weeks ago. I don't lose any memory of the events though. I do have an autopilot that kicks in sometimes too where I'll do something that doesn't require much thought like driving home and then not remember doing it.

I haven't had a meltdown in years.

There are many kinds of shutdowns:

http://everything2.com/user/Zifendorf/writeups/shutdown

Thanks for that link, Verdandi. It really helped clarify all of the conflicting (and scary) terms I've read about so far.