I have a tile pattern on my kitchen floor, each tile is a rectangel of varying length and width, I have a compulsion to not ever walk on the largest rectangle - and it's a repeating pattern so the largest one comes up every metre.
In my head I think the following compulsively;
RIGHT LEFT
LEFT RIGHT
LEFT RIGHT
RIGHT LEFT
LEFT RIGHT
RIGHT LEFT
RIGHT LEFT
LEFT RIGHT
and I'm trying to get symmetry, it's not symmetrical because it starts on right, so another section must start on left, but then it's still starting at the top on right, so I need to start a new one, and that can go on and on.
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