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28 Mar 2011, 9:57 pm

Anyone on or even been on a successful med for OCD in particular obsessive thoughts. My doctor recommended anapranil (spelling) but one of the major side effects is suicidal thoughts in those that are depressed (I'm on anti-depressants and still have occasional thoughts of wanting die...not wanting to end my life, but just wishing I wouldn't wake up)...so I don't even want to take the chance.

As some of you know, my mind obsesses over women and the idea of getting women beyond any normal guy interest. The way some Aspies might fixate on chess or science or computers...that's how much my mind fixates on the idea of getting women and porn and the like.

I'm looking to put a stop to it. It makes me feel very uncomfortable and beneath that is a guy with more to offer the world and a more caring personality.



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28 Mar 2011, 10:08 pm

nilescrane wrote:
Anyone on or even been on a successful med for OCD in particular obsessive thoughts. My doctor recommended anapranil (spelling) but one of the major side effects is suicidal thoughts in those that are depressed (I'm on anti-depressants and still have occasional thoughts of wanting die...not wanting to end my life, but just wishing I wouldn't wake up)...so I don't even want to take the chance.

As some of you know, my mind obsesses over women and the idea of getting women beyond any normal guy interest. The way some Aspies might fixate on chess or science or computers...that's how much my mind fixates on the idea of getting women and porn and the like.

I'm looking to put a stop to it. It makes me feel very uncomfortable and beneath that is a guy with more to offer the world and a more caring personality.


That might be an obsession but it's not OCD, none the less, as far as actual OCD and medicaton goes, tricyclics and SSRI's are the class of medications which have found to be helpful in treating it. Anafranil is a tricyclic I believe. It can cause a fast heart rate.



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28 Mar 2011, 10:10 pm

Well the compulsion is going on dating sites and begging for sex with any woman (within reason) that will listen, then regretting it, deleting my profile, lather, rinse, repeat. Or having sex dreams literally 5 or 6 days a week and not even enjoying it and waking up and thinking "What the hell?"



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28 Mar 2011, 10:21 pm

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Well the compulsion is going on dating sites and begging for sex with any woman (within reason) that will listen, then regretting it, deleting my profile, lather, rinse, repeat. Or having sex dreams literally 5 or 6 days a week and not even enjoying it and waking up and thinking "What the hell?"


Those might be compulsions, but not OCD compulsions. If a person with OCD has a compulsion to go on a dating site and beg for sex, it would have nothing to do with wanting sex and everything to do with a fear of some horrible misfortune befalling someone they care about, or something of that sort, if they didn't, and it would still be an odd compulsion. The vast majority of OCD compulsions or "rituals" as they are more properly called fall into certain categories...in fact, due to the neurological nature of the disorder, it's typical for people to devise nearly identical rituals for certain categories.



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28 Mar 2011, 10:31 pm

Either way, what can be done about it besides possible additional medication? It's making me very comfortable. Part of me deep down of course would want sex with a girl I liked and got along with and vice versa...but the degree and intensity to which my mind thinks about this stuff...it's hard to tell how much of this is late 20 something hormones and how much is something more.

Unlike most people on here, in addition, I'd like to address this issue before having any more relationships down the road...not fair to go into something like that with your stuff not together.

It's also hard to tell how much of the being uncomfortable about the thoughts is causing further depression.

My psychiatrist had no insight...didn't even let me finish...and just laughed it off, said I'm worrying about nothing.



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28 Mar 2011, 11:46 pm

nilescrane wrote:
Either way, what can be done about it besides possible additional medication? It's making me very comfortable. Part of me deep down of course would want sex with a girl I liked and got along with and vice versa...but the degree and intensity to which my mind thinks about this stuff...it's hard to tell how much of this is late 20 something hormones and how much is something more.

Unlike most people on here, in addition, I'd like to address this issue before having any more relationships down the road...not fair to go into something like that with your stuff not together.

It's also hard to tell how much of the being uncomfortable about the thoughts is causing further depression.

My psychiatrist had no insight...didn't even let me finish...and just laughed it off, said I'm worrying about nothing.


As I said, tricyclics and SSRI's are usually given for OCD. I'm not sure it will help with your situation but you can try it.



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29 Mar 2011, 3:36 am

Fluvoxamine maleate (Luvox in the United States) is what I take. I'm not sure how well it's working but it's better than nothing, and has made it so I'm not suicidal over these obsessive thoughts anymore, so that may address that fear you had of this making you suicidal - in my experience, the opposite happens, and I have been quite sensitive to medications.

I'm sorry OCD is ruling your life and making you so unhappy. For what it's worth, it does sound exactly like OCD to me.



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29 Mar 2011, 6:01 am

To address Chronos...I'm on 60 mg of prozac and a mood stabilizer. If I were on any more, I'd be sleeping 16 hours a day (I have to stop myself from sleeping 12 hours a day.) The tricyclic the doctor recommended causes additional suicidal thoughts in patients that are already depressed.

Purchase...interesting interpretation...that the obsessive thoughts bring the suicidal thoughts to the surface because you just want to turn your mind off.

Without getting into my dating/sexual life on here...I've dated a couple women...had foreplay but no sex...so I'm wondering how much of this is just an extreme curiosity in what I haven't done. At the same time, I'm afraid by having sex it could only get worse.



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29 Mar 2011, 7:35 am

Well it sounds like you don't like the level to which you're obsessing about these things, and whether it's technically OCD or not, Luvox mitigates obsessiveness.



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04 Apr 2011, 11:28 pm

Well I'm seeing my family doctor tomorrow. One of my online friends who knows the situation at length seems to think that it might be normal sexual frustration causing obsession and further depression. I do suffer from depression, but up until recently, it had been well over a year before I had any kind of suicidal thought. (The kind of suicidal thoughts I've been having were "I don't want to wake up tomorrow" type thoughts, not actually wanting to hurt myself.