YellowBanana wrote:
There are a variety of things I do to relax myself, some which are barely noticeable to others and others which I try not to do around people I care about because they would get embarrassed (but may well be seen to do "in public" if I am by myself).
I've noticed at the moment my most regular thing is to really stretch out my hand to maximum tension (fingers splayed, bending away from the palm), often followed by a gentle wiggling of the fingers, and then closing hand into a tight fist, then repeat as necessary. It feels good, it relaxes me, can be done almost anywhere with one hand or two, and usually goes unnoticed by others so it is good for all situations. Plus it can be easily hidden in pockets, under desks etc. when it's important to not look "weird".
I've also noticed a tendency to clap randomly . Sometimes several claps like a round of applause, sometimes just one clap. I'm not sure what this is about. I do it, and then go "why did I do that?". It kind of takes me by surprise.
I do the clapping thing when I get excited or am very happy.
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I also have some semi involuntary twitch type behaviours but don't class them as stims. As a child I would twitch my nose and the other children would run away from me saying I was pulling faces at them. In those days though I was unable to suppress it. Eventually the nose twitch wore off but in my adult years I have different ones that I am able to suppress more. They are not completely voluntary but not involuntary either...it's kind of the same feeling you get when you need to scratch an itch or something.
One is a need to constantly sniff (less frequent and mostly when I am stressed)
The other is a low volume grunting/clicking noise I make with my throat whilst moving my chin in a particular way (a sort of shaking movement that's voluntary and not like an involuntary muscular tic).
Sometimes I can get the urge to move my chin without making the grunting noise.
The other is listed above (talking to myself) and which seems to work in two different ways. I enjoy doing it when I am alone but not when it happens out in a populated area. I.e I like walking around the house talking to myself, I like walking up a country lane alone talking to myself (although I stop if I see someone coming) about whatever my brain is thinking about (and indeed do it voluntarily) but when I am out and about and I suddenly find that I am talking to myself it can be a bit embarrassing. I can suppress it when others are around but sometimes my brain does have a glitch and seems to insist on thinking loudly. It can sometimes be a case of brain - thought - out of mouth lol.
So I might be walking along thinking about doing my sequin art later, but rather than just think it my brain will actually decide to say it as well. I stop myself when I do catch myself doing it in public though as I don't want to look like the mad woman walking along the road nattering to herself lol.
I remember once making a very long and very verbose forum post to which someone replied by saying "Do you have to say every thought you have?". It related to a different type of incidence but I did sit there and think..."well, actually.....errr sometimes yes" lol.
Brain = thought = out of mouth!