Sheldon96 wrote:
I'm not sure...
My music teachers are usually astounded at the rate at which I learn instruments and techniques on them. I got up to grade 8 standard on one of my instruments in less than two years, (I'm 14 now), and there seems so be nothing I can't do technically. However, I am frequently told that I play with limited expression (almost like a robot!) and it seems to be my downfall, therefore I doubt that I am savant. (I lack the confidence and the natural flair I feel that a lot of them have.)
Actually, this sounds more savantish than you give yourself credit for. Autistic savants are usually described has having very narrow range on a specific thing. Your technical ability minus the expressive side sounds just like that type of narrowness.
The real question is if you can become expressive. It is a misconception that autistics have no emotion. You may just have to figure out some unusual ways to tap into them with your music. It may happen as you get older, too.
What goes through your head when you play? Are you thinking only about the notes? NT's seem to naturally connect emotion to music. But maybe you will need to do some mental trickery. Like pretend there's fluffy bunnies playing the keys instead of your fingers. Or the keys of the piano are actually the teeth of a demon. I'd bet if you could figure out how to tunnel through to all your emotions, you would light it up.
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