My entire life I've always had trouble with social skills. I was diagnosed a while ago with ADHD and my aspergers test was negative but I suspect otherwise. I have some classical aspergers-like symptoms which I will go into detail. I am extremely light sensitive, I can't drive without sunglasses and I always squint outside when the sun is out and I frequently get headaches from light. When I was younger I was very bothered by fabrics that did not feel right. I have always had bad motor skills, my handwriting is awful and I was never much of an athlete. I'm very analytically intelligent, my I.Q. is in the top 98% but I'm an awful artist and I hate creative writing. Also someone once asked me if I was a sociopath (I know I'm not) because I just don't show empathy very well. Also when I was a kid I had very few interests, I only liked to play video games and learn about animals and dinosaurs.
Although I can decipher facial expressions and understand tone of voice, I'm just not that good socially. I always say and do things that make people uncomfortable without trying. I frequently get into situations where I can't keep up a conversation because I just don't know what else to talk about and I find all social interactions strenuous and I need to apply a lot of effort maintain them. And people call me weird all the time and I can't stand it. Could all of these problems just be a part of ADHD or do I sound like I'm in the autism spectrum?
19 May 2011, 8:14 pm
