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I have understood how pointless it is to try to understand the incomprehensible.
I can never know to which level Im good at it as there are no facts, there is only an “it seams like”. More thoughts on that is superfluous.
With this knowledge I can now shut down my whole interest span, which only concerns matters that the human brain is not capable to capture, and therefore from the root of the whole thought process, the interest is superfluous. I will have to finally accept the excuse: “Its just the way it is”, which I have been fighting against since always.
I found out, that I could go mad and start believing everything if I continue. The problem is that the other direction also doesnt lead to wisdom, as I will have to accept that I dont understand a "sh** and everything just "is". No matter what, the human brain is restricted. I have understood my prison, which is the illusion that I understand something.
Everything will be ok without knowledge and if I don’t like what I see, my brain is negative influenced. My brain is negative influenced at any point I allow a negative thought. That’s why I will now fight negative thoughts by all means, disregard them, outwit them. Im just a stupid human being with minimum control. Aka no free will.
To all the people who already came to this conclusion: bravo! I know Im late, but better than never.

Exactly that what I see in front of my eyes becomes mine and weather Im good or not in understanding the surroundings, can never be measured and is not important. Everybody is somewhere in between and sometimes this, sometimes that. The thought is reducing myself when I try to understand the essense of everything else. I give everything else much more attention than whats healthy. Sorry thinkers, but I will start to distract myself like NTs do, and fixate on positive things.

I wonder if I just cured my AS over night.

Considering that all that you said boils down to admitting that you really can't know anything for sure, how can you be sure that you are cured?

I didnt say Im sure. I will just go out try stop thinking, beginning now. My brain has already more space for practical stuff. I will let you know if Im cured when I have seen that its executable. I imagine, that it can be managable to ignore any superfluous question from myself.

I'm happy for you.

Good luck!

Seems like you are working towards some sort of existential acceptance of your essential nature. The word 'cure' does not belong in such a conversation. Cure implies fixing something or correcting something.

@ CockneyRebel & Lelia: Thank you!

I understood that many of my thoughts dont lead to anything, so why think them, if I can never understand them fully?
The problem started as I was told people with Aspergers have an issue with understanding nonverbal interaction. I have now tried to describe nonverbal interaction literally, for myself, until the point where its impossible to describe it without using 99% fantasy. I was directly on the border to be 100% sure, which I think would be mad.
So wavefreak is right, I will accept my essential nature, which is restricted to not understand a couple of things.
I dont misunderstand people, I just try to understand them more than necessary: I think too much. I will therefore start using 10% of my effort understanding others and 90% effort to concern my own things. The ability of understanding nonverbal communication is varying in everybody in every different situation, and so we are all right if we understand it our way, and it doesnt need much attention.

I have said before that I didnt know what to do with my consciousness, like if I should hit myself in the head to reach an unconscious level, where I dont try to control what I understand around me. I now see that I have to change my thoughts and simply put other pictures in my head, because I cant understand everything and so its superfluous to try.

Only thing I can do is thinking about something else. The thoughts continue automatically. Human brain is just too stupid bæææææææ

Don't limit yourself, though. Understanding our strengths and weaknesses is important. But strengths can be nurtured to compensate for weaknesses. And it is possible to discover things even when blind to them. Scientists know about atoms and molecules but can't see them directly. Just because I can't directly sense most social information doesn't mean I can't learn things about it. But I also see some wisdom when you say you are going to devote less energy to things that really don't give you any results.

Im the opposite of blind to social information but I cant describe it, and therefore Im just speechless. If there would be any existing studies on this, it would be my theme, but for now its fiction because it cant be measured and so I cant know if Im crazy or a genius.

I just discovered that there is no time span when I understand people. I understand them instantly, so I dont have the time to stop thinking about it.

Right now I heavily doubt the credibility of my own views, because I think I know too much. People would say Im nuts.

Im afraid they are right.

I would seriously tell you that I know a lot of things that I cant explain. I would also seriously tell you that I understand religion, and the energy which persist in the spirituality between people and what makes the reality subsidiary.
Do you believe me?

If I have to make the insight that Im crazy, then maybe one day I cant distinguish between reality or dream, because I will have to doubt my biological brain. That’s why Im afraid.

If I would be reasonable, I would say that everything I cant describe with logic, is crazy. Thus everything I understand about nonverbal information is crazy, until the day we find proof of how this is done.

Why on earth do I understand it if its not possible? Arent all the people who think they understand each other as crazy as me?