I wish someone had taken me to be diagnosed when I was younger. But no, my parents never really thought anything of my... shall we say, oddities, because I didn't have problems in school.
I spent my whole life thinking that there was something wrong with me. I knew I was different, but I didn't know why, so it really only caused me confusion. I mean, I suspected that my brain worked differently, but, had I have received confirmation on that, say, 5 years ago, it would have saved me a whole lot of emotional pain and suffering.
Knowing about AS, but not being dx'd has helped me in many ways, although I still wish I could have a definite answer to the question of whether or not I actually have it. Well, let me rephrase that. While I am not a qualified diagnostician, I am absolutely certain that I am an aspie. However, I spent the past 3 months questioning everything I ever thought, said, or did and analyzed it intensely in an attempt to reach that conclusion. Knowing about AS, but not being sure that I had it was really agonizing, and I'm sure that those of us here who are self dx'd would understand that. Just being told that I have it would have been so much easier than trying to find out for myself.
Despite this, I'm glad I don't have an official diagnosis. Based on what I've researched, here in America, a diagnosis can make it difficult to find healthcare, and that's not something I want to have to deal with. Not to mention that to get a diagnosis now, I would have to drive about 2-3 hours (4-6 round trip) and pay a whole lot of money.
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Remember, all atrocities begin in a sensible place.
30 Jun 2011, 11:21 pm
