Odd thing I've noticed about meltdowns.

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25 Jun 2011, 1:20 pm

After the meltdown grinds into a shut down my logical brain seems to open up. I'm able to think of guitar phrases much much faster and I feel a bit of an endorphin rush. It's as if I'm not able to experience an endorphin rush unless I'm in this state lately. My interest becomes my complete focus. Does anyone else relate to this. Also I start to realize when my focus is slipping and my emotions are turned off. I almost sync up to my instrument and the simple act of breathing is enough to to break concentration. Everything seems to "flow". but if I am distracted the feeling turns into a horrible horrible sensation. Talking hurts too.



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25 Jun 2011, 1:50 pm

I don't really feel that. When I meltdown, I cannot stop until I am completely exhausted.



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25 Jun 2011, 2:17 pm

littlelily613 wrote:
I don't really feel that. When I meltdown, I cannot stop until I am completely exhausted.


Me as well.


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25 Jun 2011, 2:22 pm

I guess it's because I'm preoccupying myself with my interest.



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25 Jun 2011, 3:39 pm

After I have a shut sown, I feel very foolish and exhausted and I see myself in Mick Avory in those vintage images of The Kinks that I have on my walls at 5 times the intensity that I usually do.


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25 Jun 2011, 4:04 pm

Now that you mention it, this sounds familiar to me too. Usually too many shutdowns eventually leads to a meltdown. This morning however, I had a mild meltdown which has currently left me in a quiet state of shutdown, internalizing it all and realizing that there is nothing I can do about it. In the process though, I have managed to accomplish all kinds of useful things today for a change. It is an extremely lonely sensation though.



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25 Jun 2011, 9:44 pm

I noticed before I was having a mini meltdown and I cleaned my room. I feel better now though burning off the steam.



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25 Jun 2011, 10:06 pm

I've fainted before when I've had meltdowns.


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25 Jun 2011, 10:33 pm

After a severe meltdown, I tend to go into this state whereby I almost seem to be functioning on auto, with no emotion at all, maybe because I am too exhausted to be in any other state. At these times, I do tend to go into my interest and find that I struggle more to interract with people...sometimes that lasts days afterwards. It is really hard to describe actually.



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25 Jun 2011, 10:40 pm

Well, I've experienced this sometimes, and it means that your mind is experiencing a phase that is very liquid. In other words, your meltdown turns into energies that are made for focusing on merely the objection of your attention. This happens when the meltdown turns into lost energies, that regain themselves as if a dramatic change, and then are turned into 'particles' that regain charge, or the brainwaves that 'flicker.' This is what helps you focus, because the 'weight' of your objection is strewn together by these 'particles' recharged.' It is what keeps you alive and safe after a mental accident for defensive mechanisms. In other words, you are focusing on one object to defend anything that is evil. Or anything that builds tension.

Agree...or disagree...........that's what I noticed.



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25 Jun 2011, 10:40 pm

Graelwyn wrote:
After a severe meltdown, I tend to go into this state whereby I almost seem to be functioning on auto, with no emotion at all, maybe because I am too exhausted to be in any other state. At these times, I do tend to go into my interest and find that I struggle more to interract with people...sometimes that lasts days afterwards. It is really hard to describe actually.


I was going to post something similar. My brain is not working on all cylinders after a meltdown, and it can last for days depending on severity. It's like some kind of cognitive exhaustion for me.



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25 Jun 2011, 10:46 pm

Graelwyn wrote:
After a severe meltdown, I tend to go into this state whereby I almost seem to be functioning on auto, with no emotion at all, maybe because I am too exhausted to be in any other state. At these times, I do tend to go into my interest and find that I struggle more to interract with people...sometimes that lasts days afterwards. It is really hard to describe actually.


I never realy thought about it, but I knda do too, but I also feel intense shame once the shutdown phase is over.

sometimes I just feel numb and going through the motions for a few days.

It kinda sounds like the brain chemical for emotions get maxed out, and some of us just coast on funes


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26 Jun 2011, 12:27 am

i wish my meltdowns did that, mine are just getting angry and then crying till i get a migraine, miserable experiences that i would love to avoid completely.



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26 Jun 2011, 6:37 am

this sounds strangely familiar. it's like this is some form of safe-mode reboot of our brains; the meltdown ended, but we have yet to recover from the expended energy, so all that's "on" are our special interests.
i have a comparable state myself, but it's usually not triggerd by recovering from a meltdown, but actually the other way around. when i'm playing music (or playing guitar hero or something simular...) i enter this safe state where the musical action is all there is for me...



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26 Jun 2011, 7:42 am

My meltdowns look more like an NT having a nervous breakdown. Afterwards I get a pounding headache. That's all.


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