Emotionless Day

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I woke up this morning and instead of getting out of bed, I went back to sleep. I then got up around 9:30 and waited for my two sons to wake up (wife was at work). Usually I have ideas for breakfast or lunch, but I lacked motivation this morning. I took my sons to my parents and we got footers and milk shakes at the local dairy bar.

I have been working on rearranging and cleaning our house (past week)---maybe I am tired from all the work. But after lunch, I just lacked any desires to do anything.

Today I lack motivation. I want to rest or sleep. I do not feel depressed---I just lack motivation. In fact, I seem to lack emotions today. Nothing sounds bad---and nothing sounds good---if that makes sense.

It could be the weather---we were under a heat warning today. And I am tired from all the house cleaning and rearranging.

Have any of you experienced these emotionless days?

Yes.
And hot days give an easy excuse to go with it.

I find that that type of day comes around when
1) interests have come to a natural conclusion/solution (ie: i've run out of modifications to make on my board game design)
2) interests stumped - writers block.
3) project completed. ie - you reorganizing the house. No bloody idea what to do next; been spending so much focus on getting house set, that haven't had mindspace to design next puzzle/project.

I get that tired emotion a lot lately

Yes, that makes a lot of sense. I really think that may be it. Although I have yet to finish my special intense interest project (model railroad), I have had to put things on hold with it since the house cleaning has made it impracticle to continue on it. Also---I told my wife that I had bought my last structures for it---so I have put an end to the collecting of buildings for it. Thanks for your input on this.

Hi Surfman---I'm glad I'm not alone in this feeling.

Yes.
I sometimes get days that seem to have no flavor or color to them. And this is very different from the dismal characterization that depressed people give to their days. I am not depressed. It's not a sad or negative feeling. It is a profoundly neutral feeling.

It seems like the day and the events and experiences in it are generally consumed by a sense of vacancy or lack of apparent external meaning. Things change somewhat if I get very focused on one detailed topic or experience. But otherwise, yes, I get the emotionless days. They also tend to happen when I am exhausted. Apparently the aspie brain just has no capacity for emotion at all when it gets tired

Exhaustion can feel like emotionless depression. I've had both.

My whole day is structured so when something happens like I can't do an activity or I don't know what to do next because I didn't plan it then I would just stop. I would have to sit down, usually in the sun until some thought returns to me. It usually doesn't take long.

When it comes to cleaning I can only do a bit at a time, a day. And after I'd feel spent and have no idea where to go from there.

Acacia---yes, that sounds exactly the feeling---neutral. Your terms fit my feeling (no flavor or color, neutral feeling, sense of vacancy). I am tired because of all this house rearranging---furniture moving, book moving, etc. The Aspie brain having no capacity for emotion when it's tired makes sense to me.

Pensieve---I like your idea of sitting in the sun until some thought returns. Although I get overly heated in the hot sun around here lately, I might substitute that with some other relaxing place to try to get back on track. I can relate to your experience with cleaning house in being able to do only a little at a time and not knowing what to do next.

Thank you for your thoughts on this. I am still feeling emotionless today although I felt a bit motivated early this morning. I then moved two small book cases into the music room and two keyboards to the other wall. Then I fixed lunch and watched The Price Is Right. Then...emotionless again.