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I am currently 12 years old and will be 13 in a month and going into grade 8 in september

when i was in grade 5 and 6
I stabbed someone with a pencil cuz i was so mad at them
then they teachers thought i was freaking out the dragged me to the office and then my dad took me to the hostpital they
found out i had aspergers/autsim
and then since then my dad has been trying to get me mad so we go agian and a couple of the attempts got me there (my dad was in the army and he drinks aproxmenlty 8 cans of beer and i think thats why he physicly pulled me pushed me and smack my head on the walland lied about it )

and now my life is ruined i went to a anger mangement group home and a school

and now i have a record that contains of what i guess i did

and just at the begining from grade 7 i came back from the group home and school they rember me as a bad person

i feel so bad and now that they ignore me cuz of that my doctor is like yep he has bad social skills but, THEY IGNORE ME!! !

i feel so depressed/unhappy
and theres a girl who i think is so beautiful i never seen a girl this way before i want to talk to her but im afraid to cuz she may be like WTF DONT TALK TO ME

and now that i dont sociallize with anyone anymore i feel like i dont know how to tlak ot people now even my family doesnt socialize with me anymore

i rember it was so happy before all this happend

there lots of details i could give but i would ask for help as a diffrent topic cuz this is only one topic

Hi there!

I think it's common to have anger issues start when you're a teenager due to hormones, especially in people with autism spectrum conditions. I started getting angry around age 16.

I'm sorry your family is not very supportive.

Being that age is tough for anyone and especially when you are dealing with other issues like you're dealing with.

Is there a counselor at your school who you could ask to talk to on a regular basis?

One thing I did because I found middle school so unpleasant was I started making myself a baked potato in the microwave and a banana split almost every afternoon when I got home from school so I would have a happy, comforting, and tasty thing to brighten my day! Is there anything like that you can do?

I will say that the older you get the better it gets. You go through experiences and at the time they may be horrible but you survive them and learn how to deal with them.

Good luck!

i mean i dont know what to do anymore

Has your school year started already? And do you see a psychologist or therapist or a psychiatrist now?

Edit - oh sorry I see you said your school year hasn't started yet. But do you see a therapist?

I know this might not seem to be relevant to you right now, but
Is your father still a problem to your health and safety?

eth4n123, I do not blame any of what you did at all, your dad is abusive, Aspergers are naturally pissed off all ready and then your dad just made it that much more dysfunctional and anguishing. I do apologize (believe it or not I am actually feeling sympathy). I don't know if it would work with you or not but what I do to demand more respect from my family is: when I'm talking and they just ignore me or don't hear me and then they ask me what I said, I say really annoyed "I said..." but if they just walk away then call there name and repeat what you said. I'm at the point where I demand respect, and I don't care what they think about it, you know why eth4n123? Because you go through hell everyday, you deal with something no one else does, you are not responsible for what they feel and you need to show them that you have a backbone. I hope it doesn't sound like I'm calling you a weakling because I'm not and I was where you are, now I say what I say and I if I dig a girl then I'll ask her out and I will not be nervous because I do not care. I demand that my family knock when they enter my room, and not to tell me when I should clean my room or not. I just don't want to put with their s**t anymore like I used to, I'm done.

I pray that you don't inherit your fathers destructive habits or personality. With the girl, you really do not need to be nervous, just do it, it's that simple, my nephew had the same problem, I told him "Just do it." he did it and the girl liked him ta-da. If she doesn't like you then so what, you don't need her to live do you? You're alive right now. If your heart gets broken then let it run it's course I suppose.

I hope some of this was helpful, if I interpreted you're story wrong then just forget about what I said.

I can really relate to you.

All you can do is hold up you head and be proud of who you are. Having Aspergers isn't necessarily the biggest disadvantage.

As for your dad, we all know where he could possibly end up.

Try explaining to your peers about your Aspergers, and what you're going through. Some will understand, and some wont. Just don't give up on yourself. You can be really sucessful in life.

And yeah, middle school isn't fun. It's the most awkward part of your life, because you're comming out of your childhood and becoming an adolesent. I'm glad that part of my life is over. It's all downhill from there.

Life is what you make it, so make it what you want. Never stop trying.

If you want to talk about anything, PM me.

~Makayla

The part about ur dad really upset me and made me mad! That`s not right! No one deserves that! I HATE child abuse!! !! !! I hope u get better as life goes on and find what u need to be happy!