PinkRangerV wrote:
I wasn't depressed before puberty, although I did have a spell of 'dark moods' where I was very introverted, calm, quiet, and sometimes sad. Later, though, some bad stuff happened and I ended up traumatized. I did deal with that, but now I'll sometimes get depressed spells where I'm feeling bad for no apparent reason. It lasts for half an hour to a few hours, then goes away. What the heck is it? Is this part of my Asperger's, just something weird...? It's getting really old, and it's been going on for months. Help?
What happened when you were traumatized? Was it the situation of NT-s putting you down because of your aspie traits? Or was it something unrelated, such as loss of family member?
I have the same situation you do. Except that in my case I don't have a clear spells that last for short period of time. Instead, I just have an overall low self esteem and lack of motivation. I won't classify it as depression though. Just the general fact that I am less motivated than when I was younger.
In my case what started it was three incidents. One was getting two D-s when I was 19. The second one was being thrown out of aspie mailing list at 21. And the third had to do with not finding social acceptance at a Jewish club I was attending, also at 21. So yeah, in my case I became "slightly" depressed at 19 and then got "slightly worse" at 21. But no such spells as you described.
Right now I am 31, which means that its been going on for 10+ years. So now I just accept it as "the way I am", and view the happier times as something along the lines of "longing for the past", which is quite common.
24 Jul 2011, 3:19 pm
