Aspies and anxiety
What sort of things do you worry about? Do you worry more about day-to-day things, or do you worry more about the future, or do you worry about bad experiences from the past? Do certain routines keep you from worrying too much? Does working part-time and being able to have more space keep you from worrying too much?
Here's a few of my worries that circle round and round in my head each time I go out.
‘’What if people stare at me or laugh at me today?’’
‘’What if they don’t sell my favourite drink any more?’’
‘’What if I forget my money or lose my buspass?’’
‘’What if the job-centre says my job search isn’t good enough, and stops my job-seekers money?’’
‘’What if I have to do more job applications that I need help with?’’
‘’What if the bus is late, or gets overcrowded?’’
‘’What if somebody embarrasses me?’’
''What if my boyfriend cheats on me?''
‘’What if it snows and I slip over on the icy pavements?’’
‘’What if there’s kids screaming in the restaurant and it gets too overwhelming?’’
‘’What if I can’t find any suitable jobs for me?’’
‘’What if my friends suddenly stop liking me?’’
‘’What if I do or say something wrong to people, and get teased for it?’’
There are so many more thoughts like this that I worry about. Things like this are more like day-to-day worries. I also worry about big things too, like:-
''What if my house goes on fire?''
''What if I get attacked or raped or murdered?''
''What if a burglar breaks into my house?''
''What if a close relative of mine dies?''
''What if the plane crashes when I go on holiday?''
''What if I get bullied when I start a new job?''
''What if I get cancer, and die a long, painful death?''
''What if we get a rough, freezing cold winter this year, where it snows non-stop for months?''
''What if I suddenly develop Epilepsy, or Bipolar, or start wetting the bed or something?''
''What if they start up a war?''
''What if David Cameron decides to cut more services, making both my parents lose their jobs and we get chucked out of our house and living on the streets?''
There's just more thoughts than I can ever write. Let's hear some of your worries what swim through your mind a lot (those who suffer from anxiety and/or depression, or other co-morbid or AS-related disorders).
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Female
My most common thoughts are:
What if I say the wrong thing?
What if I offend the person?
What if I come off as stupid?
What if it makes me stupid?
What if the person gets pissed off at me and does something to me?
What if we go broke?
What if a surprise happens and then we be broke?
What if I get anxiety?
What if I fail?
What if I make a mistake and get punished for it?
What if I waste my money?
What if I am just lazy?
What if I am just stupid?
What if people get mean to me?
What if it gets taken the wrong way?
What if I get accused of harassment?
I cannot really list them all here or the page will never load but I hate this one:
‘’What if the job-centre says my job search isn’t good enough, and stops my job-seekers money?’’
What those idiots do not understand is that I live in a very industrial area, where all the industrial jobs have gone overseas to save money, we are in the middle of a recession and I am stuck MILES away from any city/town of significance. It is hard enough to get a job anyway for a normal person, harder still when you are constantly told to lie and BS through an interview when you have just walked 10 miles to get there in the first place.
tomboy4good
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Joined: 14 Apr 2008
Age: 62
Gender: Female
Posts: 1,379
Location: Irritating people everywhere
What if I say the wrong thing?
What if I act all spastic?
What if I annoy someone?
What if I don't understand the question?
What do I say if someone talks to me?
How best to behave?
Why do I have to come off as being so weird?
How come I can't just be normal?
What if I never find my purpose?
Why can't I ever do something right?
Why...why am I here anyway?
Why can't I focus on the stuff I need to do?
Why am I so scatter brained all the time?
Just some of the stuff I struggle with all the time.
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If I do something right, no one remembers. If I do something
wrong, no one forgets.
Aspie Score: 173/200, NT score 31/200: very likely an Aspie
5/18/11: New Aspie test: 72/72
DX: Anxiety plus ADHD/Aspergers: inconclusive
Ilka
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Joined: 7 May 2011
Age: 52
Gender: Female
Posts: 1,365
Location: Panama City, Republic of Panama
I cannot screw up.
I cannot fail.
I hate how I get so angry at little things.
Everyone else is so different from me, they don't have to worry about this crap.
They're going to be upset with me/yell at me.
I'm spending too much money.
I am going to say the wrong thing.
They think I am too quiet. Quiet is bad.
I will never go anywhere in life.
They think I am weird.
I am a waste of space/worthless/pathetic.
I am lazy and unproductive.
I am a quitter.
Because I did (action) now they think (feeling).
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Given a “tentative” diagnosis as a child as I needed services at school for what was later correctly discovered to be a major anxiety disorder.
This misdiagnosis caused me significant stress, which lessened upon finding out the truth about myself from my current and past long-term psychiatrists - that I am a highly sensitive person but do not have an autism spectrum disorder
My diagnoses - anxiety disorder, depression and traits of obsessive-compulsive disorder (all in remission).
I’m no longer involved with the ASD world.
Mostly I worry about things I have done in the past.
Whether a real long time ago or just a minute ago.
Fear of repeating those things again.
The probable accidents and forseen events I try to prepare for.
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“It is better to offer no excuse than a bad one.”
― George Washington
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