Should I go to my final appointment?
My psychiatrist is ditching me (I'll still be able to get the meds I need so that isn't a problem.) He claims it's because he's phasing out of the office and just going to people's houses (he does a lot of work with really really old people.) I think it's for other reasons.
About a month ago, I was feeling really suicidal (where I wanted to die but wasn't going to do anything to myself) so I called his emergency line. The operator asked if it was an emergency. (Since I wasn't a threat to hurt myself, I said "No, but very important and urgent.) So my mom mistakenly told me that he called back, and I could hear the operator talking to him and asking if he wanted to talk to me and she told me he didn't call and to stop calling the emergency line.
In person a week or two later in the appointment, my mom and I confronted the secretary about her rudeness and she answered with more rudeness and slammed the door to her office and said "I'm not dealing with those people anymore."
I explained to the doctor how it really was an emergency, and that I was feeling genuinely suicidal...he didn't apologize...just said "There have been times you called the emergency line just to get an appointment time." (Which I've never done.)
Anyway, so my mom got that call from him about him all of a sudden phasing out his practice. I personally think it's really because 1.)He's a douche in general. 2.)That secretary must be a daughter in law of his or something. 3.)My insurance (Medicare) isn't fast enough for him.
I know that if I go to the final appointment, since I have a "don't care about how I come off" type personality, I would give him a piece of my mind. In general, I just don't see the point in the appointment...nothing good can come out of it. I'm not going to change him or his secretary. Difficult people will always be difficult people.
At the same time, it would be nice to go in his office, and even if I don't call him out for the secretary/insurance stuff, make it clear to him that I don't need him anyway and that he's a pretentious loser.
So what should I do?
Hmmm....maybe you could make your decision based on what you're hoping for? (i.e. if his response to what you said was really horrible--the exact opposite of what you hoped for--do you think you would regret going or would you still be glad you'd had the chance to speak your mind?)