Have others experienced cognative dissonance being a completely overwhelming feeling? Even over minor things the feeling like I'm contradictory completely shuts me down and has lately been putting me to tears on its own.
Its actually one of the few meltdown triggers I can actually control, because its so reliable, if I start feeling cognitive dissonance I need to get out of that situation, because any little thing after that would have me sobbing and screaming.
For example, I've found that jealousy isn't on its own a big deal for me, but jealousy always is associated with positive feelings and the combination is so completely overwhelming that I have no idea what to do for long periods of time after it hits, even if I do get control over myself.
Does feeling like you're contradicting yourself bother others a lot too?