Do you feel like you're going to explode?

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Are you ever sitting still in a situation like a bus seat and you feel so all over the place that you feel like you're about to explode but somehow you miraculously keep it in? I almost fear that I'm going to inadvertently hurt fellow passengers and I think about removing myself to a safe position like standing in the aisle, lol. I'm not actually literally going to explode, but it almost feels like it.

Is this characteristic of Aspergers?

I feel like I'm going to explode if I can't stim, or if there are far too many people around. It may be a characteristic, especially if the bus you were sitting in was really crowded.

Oh yeah, it was crowded. Thanks to the dual combination of the job market (Especially for students) and high gas prices, it seems many more people are taking the bus to school. It seems nearly empty afternoon buses are but a distant memory for me...

Might be more characteristic of ADHD. I have heard such accounts from ADHD people. I am diagnosed with nothing, but I often feel like I'm full of something that I need to get out. I used to be a rabid exerciser

Crowded buses make me meltdown; especially in the summer.

I would call that a meltdown.

I have it happen all the time in various situations.

All the time! I'm still not sure how I got through all those years of sitting still in class.

I sit with earplugs in all forms of public transport and still feel the noise will drive me mad. Even when it's relatively quiet. When it really IS loud I can't think straight any more and feel as if I was exploding inside.

I often feel like this. Luckily I've got enough self-control to be able to prevent this, but supposing I become worse later on in life, and I actually do explode in public? That is my worst nightmare (amoungst other things!), and I just hope I don't get to the point where that happens. I already have a fragile state of mind and poor self-esteem and a lot of anger in me, so I'm surprised that I've lasted this long. Some say that there must be a strength in me somewhere to be able to keep cool with all that going on in my mind!

But anyway, yes, I have felt like I was about to explode, especially in supermarkets. I've seemed to developed this obsessive hatred of standing in people's way, because knowing I'm always getting in everybody's way make me feel so awkward all the time, and what makes me mad is I get in the way even in the most unlikely places. And once I stood in somebody's way and some twat came near me and said, ''excuse me'' and I got so mad that I stuck my fingers up at her when her back was turned (nobody really saw). I just couldn't help myself. My brain suddenly shut down and so I didn't know how else to calmly relieve my anger, so sticking my fingers up made me feel better. Then another time I was trying to look at some clothes in a clothes shop, and a woman came and looked at the same clothes on the small rail, and was standing almost right on top of me, and I felt like screaming.

I mostly feel like exploding when I'm around other women. Men aren't so irritating because they don't stand in your way so much and they don't make you feel so awkward when you're in their way, and they wait 'til you're finished when you're trying to look for something in shops.

I sometimes feel antsy like that when standing in lines. I sometimes have the issue where I can't find anything to occupy my mind and thus find a certain peculiar anxiety welling up from deep inside me. I also hate the moment when my plane arrives at the gate and everyone by the aisle stands up but we're still stuck waiting for the door to open and for the people ahead to collect their belongings and move forward. I feel almost irrationally impatient inside sometimes, though I usually keep it to myself. Maybe it's claustrophobia. I don't know.

Are there any other people who find plane rides exceedingly unpleasent and claustrophobia inducing? It's always the worst at the very end when the plane lands too, like I'm just itching to GTFO ASAP.

Happens to me all the time on planes...I have to *really* try to keep it to myself!

~Kate

Yes, usually right before a meltdown.

I can get into a thinking mode that has much weight. The thoughts circle around and 'bounce' making me antsy/impatient like I need to fulfill them--- powerful with an eidetic feel, but I can't fulfill at the moment. I just get thinking and thinking or my pet project overrides everything. This happens when I get into that obsessional ADD mode, I pace the floor or drive for a time while thinking about them-- a stim.

Other than that I'm under aroused on side 2 of the coin, to the other extreme and very patient. Weird.