I Can't Feel My Legs!

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...or my feet for that matter. Since I've been on SSRI's I have been able to acknowledge them and incorporate them into a loosely-held-together Gestalt concept of my own physical body and how to control it in space as I perceive it.

My proprioception is drastically improved if I keep my eyes finitely focused on my feet/limbs and the geometrical patterns that are produce as they pass each other... then I'm fine, but I have not been able to perfect that.

I've been expelled from 1 major University and then unable to officially earn my degree from another, despite having completed all of my upper-division major coursework in the field of neuropsychology.

I'm 37 and have been an undergrad for 15 years because I fail a standardized writing exam over and over again.

I've been rejected by every administrator (who I have "spoken" at) and was eventually referred to Disabled Student Services by my graduation-evaluator... who recommended I see my doctor, so I will do that tomorrow.

I've been through 3 major orthopedic surgeries (I recovered from each in an apartment room by myself with no friends or family) to repair my ACL and meniscus in both my right and left knees along with my AC shoulder joint injury (that occurred from "me being an idiot") I've never been able to stick to a sport or anything long enough to have an injury that was worth anything but I've sure managed to get ingured

I've never been able to process wins and losses in a way that I can use the information to improve the likelihood of success in future endeavors. Every scenario in my developing life, I perceive as novel, unique and deserving of great scrutiny, attention and resolution.

I eventually abandon all of my "friends" except for the ones who "just will not go away, damn it". Who I love but could do without.

From Second grade on, all of my teachers physically separated me from the rest of my classmates, because I could not leave the other kids alone. ( my dad was a teacher in the district so they had to treat me well )

I wondered, "Are these kids listening to this, or are they like me?"

No matter how low I sink or how great I achieve, one thing always remains the same... me in a room, on a couch, staring at the wall, doing nothing but "studying".



Hi Everyone. I'm CrayzeeL3ggz, I think.

Wow, me neither/too.

Can you not feel your legs due to physical injury or is it psychosomatic?

Hi.

Mine is just lack of proprioceptive awareness. After years of "clandestine yoga" at age 37, I'm starting to develop a sense of physical balance, ease and relief. Studying Sensation and Perception helped me. Also, concentrating on the concept of "little circles" provides me with great relief. Of course I can't go through life concentrating on little circles and performing clandestine yoga... or can i?

Does that mean you cannot walk or even move at all? I feel bad for you. It sounds like your life is really hard and your "friends" and your family don't seem to help you... or so it seems to me. I wish you well, and great recovery. I also wish that you could have more friends and I wish you will soon see your family again. You need your family to be with you (that is, if they treat you well).

Well, hi. This was an interesting post.

I did not mean to imply that my experience relates in any way to that of amputees or people who are paralyzed.

I believe that my proprioceptive development is atypical. However, I have not been diagnosed.

I'm not an expert - but read your post and immediately I wondered if a diagnosis of dyspraxia and dyslexia had been ruled out?

I'm asking about that, because you've mentioned you are able to complete extremely high level studies but a standardized test is holding you back from progressing. Often dyslexia goes undiagnosed when someone can spell - its another hidden disability like AS and the spectrum - and this can impact on studies in a unique and often disastrous way when not picked up.

Dyspraxia also manifests itself by having real problems dealing with spatial awareness, perception etc....
If these have been ruled out then it is worth pursuing other diagnoses.

Other than that, I think wrong planet gives lots of info and advice about AS and I found it useful to see how other people cope with difficulties linked to not being neurotypical,

hope this is of help

It does, thank you.

I've done great on all of my upper-division scientific research papers, including an A in Research Methods which requires an APA style research paper. The particular writing requirement that I'm having the issue with requires requires me to express myself and the class requires me to interact with other students, which is something I have a major problem with. Still, maybe not AS but since they've sent me to disabled services, I started doing research and found AS. I know it's pop to self diagnose so I won't do that. It just makes me feel normal to hear some of the stories and info on AS so, I dont know.

Side-note... when I was about 26, for a semester, I worked as a Behavioral Therapist through an Autism treatment institute, with a young Autistic boy. I was able to get further with him than the experts and I helped him to finally speak his first word, which was unprompted and was my name. His mother called me on the phone that weekend to tell me. She was crying. Although, I felt a friend in the boy, I felt nothing for her except repulsion and didn't want to be involved anymore so stopped after the semester was over. I was proud of the work I did and missed the kid but I treated them like i treat everyone else, i just go the other way and apparently most everyone is happy to reciprocate.

Just called my doc. Nov 23rd appointment.

Welcome to Wrong Planet!

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