Eternal Childhood

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When I write I can express myself quite clearly but when I talk to people in real life I sound like a little kid even my actions are childlike too. I know this because it's been pointed out to me.

I've waited for many years for the defining moment that makes me an adult but it just doesn't seem to happen and sometimes it does make me feel that I have to hide away.

I'm nearly 40 now and I'm wondering whether I will be like this forever.

I'm 43. I still do things like cuddle a stuffed animal at night, make Thanksgiving cabins out of Lincoln Logs, and hide out in a tent I made over the couch with a blanket and a couple of chairs. My humor is harmless but silly and punny. I get moody, sensitive, and overexcited. I have a GED and no significant college experience. My fibromyalgia keeps me out of work, so I don't have a job, let alone a career, like so many people around me. I think I understand where you're coming from. I've often wondered if I really "qualify" to legitimately call myself an adult. I've often wondered if others consider me an adult, though most of them will never know about things like my tent, if I can help it!

However, I maintain a relationship that's lasted over a decade, I vote, I drive, I manage my own money very well with a budget I devised for myself, I look out for my friends, and I'm conscientious about my attitudes and behaviors, even if I often make mistakes. When I do make mistakes, I try my best to apologize, make things right, learn, and move on. That's more than a lot of other people do.

I'm such a mix that, my whole life, I've had some people think I was very immature and others think I was very mature. I suspect you're the same way.

I am definitely still a child, and I don't see that changing anytime sooner or later.

But how do you feel about it? Are you glad? Does it bother you? Are you concerned with what others think? Do you hope they know? I'm sorry, btbnnyr, but I couldn't tell from your post.

My former wife said I had a nice smell of sawdust. Maybe one day I'll become a real boy, then I can be a grown up after that!

I'm also 38. I always felt as a child in a grown-up body. I only begun to feel like a man only two and a half years ago. I've been unlucky with relationships, I have no wife, no children, and in this respect I totally hate myself, being a twit. On the positive side, I can drive, have a car, an apartment, was able to hold down relatively good jobs so far, and I'm over-educated in a sense (I'm an economist).

My voice is unusual, and I can speak well only to receptive / intellectual people, and I'm also better at writing.

Depending on the situation and my mood, my parents regard me either childish or clever...

Adulthood

This is me!!

http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/2010/06/this-is-why-ill-never-be-adult.html

I am not sure what age I felt. I have felt old and then young. My husband says I am like a kid at times and then teens and then adult. He says how I react to sweets and when he gets me a candy bar is just like a child or me getting into the sweets when we buy some. We buy sweets and they are gone within days and he tells me "You are just like a little kid, always getting into the sweets and then it's gone." I tell him grown ups like sweets too so what is the difference between me and them and he tells me they don't do it the way I do it.

People have pointed out, even aspies, about how childish I am when I get upset or frustrated about stuff so the way I handle it is "childish."


My husband even says my views on the world are just like a child. I still like kid shows and teen shows but I don't watch very much TV like I used to. I have watched grown up shows too like lifetime but I did that even in my teens and I was younger than emotionally. Heck even as a child under age 13 I have watched some rated R movies or PG 13 movies.

When I am around my niece who is 15, I feel I am at her level but I don't feel that way about grown ups.

I am 36. I still love stuffed animals. I get excited about stuff that I love. When I'm not in a funk, I have a lot of energy and want to DO STUFF. Most of my friends are 18-23 yrs old. Most people my age are jealous that I can still get excited about anything at all.

It sucked for a real long time, being perma-immature, but now I love it. It's better than being jaded, bitter and cranky.

People pointed out to me that I act like a shy little girl. But it's because I feel like it and have no idea if I will ever "grow up". But somehow it stresses me, because I am scared of what the future will be like. But acting mature - I don't know how to do it. I also feel very young around people my age or younger than me, I refer to them as the "grown up's". What makes me "the child".

I'm 41 and I have a box full of LEGO's and a shelf of matchbox cars (all purchased within the past 10 years)
I love video games & cartoons. Every time I drive past a playground, I have the intense urge to get out and climb around.

And sometimes I have cake for breakfast just because I CAN!

I think this "adulthood" thing is another one of those silly games the NT kids are trying to force on everyone.

I think everyone feels this way.