Without a diagnosis by an appropriately trained and licensed mental-health professional, your research is pointless.
You may have other conditions that can either mimic your symptoms or distort your perceptions. In either case, the subjective nature of your "diagnosis" is likely to be incorrect. If it is, then you will end up "treating" the wrong condition.
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The mere fact that science may not yet adequately explain an object, event, or experience does not mean the immediate explanation should automatically default to a conspiratorial, extraterrestrial, paranormal, or supernatural cause.