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My dad gave me the social deficiency. My mom gave me the hyper sensitive thing. I got the rest of AS by myself. Sometimes it feels like I am a baseball card collection of autistic traits handed down by various relative who are probably NT.

I see traits in my family members, but none of them would ever get a diagnosis. Honestly, I'll be happy when my family tree dies out entirely. Our genes are diseased, physically and mentally.

Especially my generation. My older cousin stays in her dorm all day long, can't relate to people and a cat is her only companion. My younger cousin is sitting on the floor spinning in circles, although she is quite intelligent. Me, I am a melting piece of Asperger's with a nt candy shell.

I don't know much about the family history of my grandpa on my mom's side, but I'm pretty certain I got all my aspieness from him.

My family are all NTs, alas. But the people on my mum's side are very shy, sensitive people, and are all ''too nice'', and let themselves get s**t upon and find it hard to hate people, and they get took advantage of by spouses. They are not Aspie enough to be diagnosed or anything, but they just have that trait in them what most Aspies seem to have. So the traits must have affected me the most and too much have gone into me too strongly, and caused me to be a true Aspie. f**k knows why it went to ME, but that's just my f*****g luck I suppose. Pity my dad's gene didn't come strong in me - they're all socially confident people. *sigh*

I'm kind of a random mishmash of personality traits from every one in my family, but my mom's side of the family is more like me then my dad's (yay.)