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went to local shop that is quite small.. but noisy and anyoying lights, early in the morning about 8am or somthing , i didnt sleep all night (but had a nap when got home ) So i wanted to go get a spongebob comic book but there wasnt any .. which started me stiming and wondering around the shop repetatly trying to relax.. by now alot of pepole started staring at me including staff no point mentining im autistic to them because they dont understand autism. i had earphones in ears pluged into phone playing relaxing music like "distant sound of the sea" and "nature sound" i think you find them on youtube. i raler use headphones but they dont work with phone.

That feels so awkward, going to a place where you're supposed to do something, only to find out that you can't. Like if you need to drop something off somewhere, but the person you're giving it to isn't there, and you suddenly realise that you have no idea what the hell to do... You can't just leave it on the ground, but it feels like you can't just walk away without doing anything either, or everyone there will wonder why you just showed up for no reason and then left for no reason... So you end up just standing there freaking out for a while, trying to act casual and not look completely lost.

It makes me laugh thinking about it now, but it's a nightmare when stuff like that happens.

Happy Birthday, Nintendofan