Never wanted to harm myself over autism

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I did however want to harm myself over how others were treating me. Why do people assume autism is a death sentence when autism itself is not but others constantly bombarding you with their projections and cannot accept that you think differently? There seems to be a complete lack of empathy as in they cannot put themselves in your shoes for some reason even though they've been through something similar enough that they very well could. Instead you are just treated like you have no right to have your reactions meanwhile if something similar happens to them, they respond sometimes even more dramatic than you.

Does this mean they view autistics as people who aren't worthy of having the same human rights as everyone else?

I'd like to know what the appropriate response is and how these judgemental people would respond if-

1. Nothing they did was good enough.
2. They proved by actions they could in fact do something only to have it quickly dismissed and you're still not allowed.
3. Couldn't get a job because of personality tests.
4. Getting fired for being different.
5. Nobody is ever on your side no matter how many times it was shown that your version of events were not inaccurate but everything you say has to be proven meanwhile those same people turn around and accept everyone else's word as gospel even liars.
6. On one hand you are told you need to be more sociable but when you try you are ridiculed, mocked and treated with disdain.
7. Your "stims" are not acceptable. If you flap when excited that is not acceptable behavior meanwhile others get to bounce up and down and squeal which I find way more annoying.
8. Rocking is just weird. You aren't supposed to do that. Same person enjoys rocking in a rocking chair though.
9. You are depressed. Someone lures out the information of why and then declares it's a lame reason. Then they get depressed and you are supposed to be empathetic and caring.
10. People tell you what you are supposed to not be able to do over your autism. You show you can do that and they hate you for it.

So it seems people want to keep autistics in a place that they have prejudged. Autism is not a death sentence. It's other people who try to push autistics down to keep them in their place that are worse. Do these people know what it's really like to have autism? No. They sure do like to pretend that they do.

Over time this causes PTSD and that in my opinion is even worse than autism but to these non-know it alls who think they know everything about what it's like being autistic because they read a book by someone else who does not have autism they can judge, cast shade and try to make sure you stay the way that they've decided is your fate. Much like how when children are diagnosed with autism the one diagnosing tells parents to expect failure.

"I just don't know how to treat you!" Those words echo in my mind while I know they know how to treat a human being because I see them treat others with respect and empathy so don't give me that bull anymore.

ENOUGH. I am a person. I come from Earth. I live with you, I live around you. I breathe like you, I feel like you it just doesn't always register on time. This gives no reason to treat another person like dirt because you cannot view them as an individual human being. I am human. Treat me like one.

Yeah. Frustrating, isn't it? Makes you want to punch something. (Hopefully not yourself, though, let's face it, it happens--I've been there.)

There are good parts of being autistic, like there are good parts to any kind of life. But you have every right to complain about the bad parts, because they DO suck, and you are not imagining it, and you really do deserve better.

Find those people who treat you like an equal, and put only those people on your list of "People Whose Opinions I Care About".

It is frustrating. Same thing happens here on WP too sometimes.

The only way I've ever found to deal with it is try as hard as I can, and move on when others refuse to do the same in return.

Guess that's why the Godsmack song, "Whatever," resonates so well with me at times.