Aspergers assessment

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I had my aspergers assessment today but after 10 minutes of talking the guy said he didn't think I had aspergers, and started asking me about symptoms of ADHD thinking my OCD and social difficulties might be related to it.
I had the autism group today after it so mentioned it there but they still say 'we all have autism here' including me with no problem and were saying they don't think he should have made a judgement so soon into it.
The leader said to try to get a written report from him in explanation of his opinion and she'll see what she can do. I may try for a second opinion depending on what happens.

He basically told me I expressed myself well enough with words and tone of voice that he would know how I felt with his eyes closed.
Ignoring my difficulty maintaining eye contact and seeing my stimming as signs of ADHD (I don't disagree with him, but there are overlaps so some aspie signs he was seeing as ADHD instead. My brain works in a way many AD(H)Ders suggest is like theirs so I had a feeling I might have it but the social difficulty is much more of a problem for me.

It means I can't read hints, atmospheres, pick up on subtle social cues.
I don't understand flirting, I'm uncomfortable with romance; and not by lack of experience, I am fairly attractive and get a lot of flirty attention and am often stuck in situations I didn't realise were romantic, or in a 'relationship' I didn't realise had developed because people weren't bluntly honest with me. So it's not a case of being social awkward, I actually am rather at ease socially, but I put this down to confidence and not noticing how many mistakes I may be making, so when someone gets all arsy with me I see it mostly as their fault so carry on my own way.
THIS is a more aspie trait. I'm simply not understanding things you should know innately or develope knowledge of without having to do so much psychological research and social experiments as I do in every day socialising to better understand friends and family.

Despite mentioning I will see it as the other persons fault when they're upset, I am actually really worried about making mistakes because I know I lack some understanding for why, I do not know. I don't care and blame them when it is their fault for not letting me know what was happening, like if they're upset and say 'I'm fine!' then get angry because I didn't realise they were effectively lying for no reason.
But if I say something and it offends them, I have little way of knowing because people avoid telling the truth for some reason, which means every time I say something, unless I get an overtly good response I start thinking of hundreds of ways it could have upset them or made someone uncomfrotable etc.


I think the guy put my aspie traits down to me reading up on aspergers and over analysing it.
Perhaps my main traits of aspergers are just over analysing.
After all I analyse what I don't understand.
Maybe the question is, do I not understand because I analyse so deeply?

My answer would be no. I lack the GUT RESPONSE people talk about having. I have never had a gut feeling, I just guess or analyse. There is no middle ground for me to work on. A gut response sounds like either common sense or luck. Unfortunately I'm low in both. =.=
As a result, I have to analyse to compensate for the gut feeling, but without the gut feeling, all the possibilities are almost equal, so narrowing down my options is a lot harder and thus I am stuck feeling lost and behind on social interaction.

Because I am at ease and think of so many things at once (ADHD signs) I can think about these worries while not showing any of it on the outside, I can think of like 8 thoughts at once, when hypo manic it is around 20 or more at once. One trail of thought of analysing can turn into 4, the others can be on the light, the noise, the conversation, something funny over there and the food I'm eating. I can only express one of those thoughts at once, so of course it can easily at times look as though I am just going with the flow, or simply distractable, without the fact I'm not sure what effect I'm really having on people, and whether we're on the same page even showing to others.

I feel like this is working against me.

However it could also be true I'm just over analysing my problems and there isn't anything wrong with me.
Something I'm scared of. Because if nothing is wrong with me, then it just means I'm stupid.

I agree with the leader of your group and I would accept the offer to have them look over the report for you. I don't know much about this side of things, but it does sound like the judgement was too quick and too reductionist.

In my first assessment with my mum present, the assessor started asking more into OCD and Social Anxiety for clarification, but then switched back to ASD symptoms etc., when he realised my traits were edging more so into the autistic direction. At my later meeting with the psychologist and psychiatrist present, they I was asked questions more related to social interaction, my emotions and my interests. The first assessor (CAMHS Clinical Nurse Specialist) concluded that it is quite likely that I have AS, but is at the moment finalising a report on me.