Another Might I be an Aspie Thread~Sorry guys

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So I tried to type this up on word first and I'm at 2 pages....so I'm going to try my best to make this short and sweet...

I am 24 now, but I was diagnosed with Tourette’s syndrome when I was very little. My little cousin has Aspergers, and my mom has always suspected her dad of it too. I read the description and was shocked. I've been researching is non-stop for a couple weeks now, and while TONS of it fits, I'm having a hard time figuring out if other things do to. I've always known I didn't think like other people, but I never really considered the reasons for any of the things I did that are supposedly symptoms.

For instance:
-Eye contact: I never gave this any thought. No one ever mentioned it, and I can look ppl in the eye when they are talking to me, but then I am constantly thinking of what my face is supposed to look like and its very awkward feeling. When I talk though I look all around me instead of at them.
-Scared of loud sounds: Loud sounds always startle me and make me jump, the fire alarm always agitated me even when I knew nothing was wrong, but I wouldn't say scared really. When I think scared, I think terrified. I think cowering under desks, crying, trying to get away. I know this seems to be the case for some, but is there a milder version maybe?
-Light sensitivity: I never thought of myself as being sensitive to light, but people have asked on numerous occasions why I am sitting or working in the dark. I just don't feel the need to turn the lights on? And of course its always more comfortable in dimmer light, but that's just normal isn't it?

Now here's the thing. I'm always mad for no reason. My dad has, in an angry moment, told me I am the most bitter person he's ever met. Sometimes I'm just annoyed by stupid people, or people doing things in stupid ways (ie. not my way LOL!), but there's a lot of cases that if you asked me why I was mad, I don't really have a valid reason, I just feel tense and agitated. I always assumed I was just an intolerant jerk, but I don't feel like that really! For instance, the family will be out shopping and I'll be having a good time or whatever, and then suddenly I'm just done and I want to go home. Then of course my family wants to do a couple last things and then I'm an angry jerk the rest of the time.

And then of course there are the social things. Most of the time in social situations my mind is totally blank when I try to come up with something to say, or some way to respond, and then I wonder how people normally respond but I just don’t know. Now that I’ve worked in sales for a while (which I’m very good so that makes me wonder, but I spent hours researching it and experimenting after getting the job) I have certain things that I always say for small talk, but after that I just don’t know what else to say.

There is SO much more, so many more observations and questions and confusion, but these are the main things I think, of course I'll prolly look over this later and realize I missed the most important thing. That happens a lot too >.>

But If I could get some input or opinions, or anything that would be really helpful...I just want to KNOW, like for sure. It would make me feel like way less of a freak if I knew there was a reason...

You should make an appointment with your doctor and discuss your concerns with him or her. What you describe could be Asperger's. Everyone manifests it differently in their own unique way. One person maybe sensitive to light while another may have acute hearing. It could also be other things such as anxiety.