I'm not sure...

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How can you know what you were like as a child to see if you think you have Aspergers or not, if your parents just can't be bothered remembering what you were like?

I'm sure I've read school reports saying I need to speak up more/get involved more/not be so moody/do the work, but I don't know if it's the ADD, AS, or both or neither.

I need educating more on it before I bring it up with my psychiatrist, as I don't want to embarrass myself.

I can't really help you out, but you have reminded me what was written on most of my school reports during the 70's & 80's, "Chris is easily distracted".

Which was, & still is, true.

Me: Inability to tell time, do simple math. Then a whopping high national score for music retention.

These kinds of extreme abilities / disabilities are characteristic indications.

I have a pretty good memory of my life from about age 4 onward, and random memories from ages 2 and 3. So, I guess that doesn't help, except to say that I remember all the issues I had & how I dealt with them. And actually, since I internalized so much, I'm not certain anyone else would have the insight besides me.

You know I have those sort of issues. I can't remember time well or spaces/directions. I still have to consciously determine what side is left or right before that direction is understood to me. >,< I am good at music (singing not instruments). Go good memory for lyrics, I love art . . . almost failed college algebra 1 and two and my finance class, too >,< even with a financial calc. Math does not COMPUTE to me. I have a large memory bank of musicals, musical movie tid bits . . . my friends think I am selective and bratty, not . . . different.

My memory from when I was a toddler and beyond is pretty good, anything
from birth to my toddler years are just random chunks. I always thought
myself as the odd one, in first grade I had an aide; my parents also tried to teach
me the proper way to play with toys. The majority of my report cards said that I need
to participate in class discussion and had many uncompleted assignments, dad got
mad at me for that. I was bad at every single subject besides biological and physical science
and art, especially math.

I have been asking my parents relevant questions about it in small chunks. Mostly I am trying to determine whether the things described in the ASD diagnosis apply to me early in life, like in pre-school and kindergarten. So far, I have determined that I was selfish and did not like to share with other kids, I didn't crawl because of a lack of coordination of my right and left side, I hated eye contact, didn't care much about my appearance and liked to wear the same items all the time. I also loved to disassemble my toys and/or break them to see why and how they worked. I had a horrible attention span and was much better with mathematical theory than with doing the actual work. I also took a differential intelligence test (that my mom does not have) when I was 12 which showed me to be in the 97th percentile (top 3% of all who were tested) on one side of the brain (she said left when I asked her) and below average on the other. I also know that I had an EEG performed by a neurologist some time in the mid 80's and he said I had ADHD. I was bullied a lot as a child and usually only had one or two friends. I also did not like anything where I had to be on a team or was not in control. Sports were a particular hatred for me and I nearly failed PE in kindergarten because of my refusal to participate. Even in later grades, PE was not one of my good subjects as I much preferred history or science to anything physical. I was also know to drone on and on about my singular obsession-cars- and even got in trouble in 3rd grade for bringing a service manual for quiet reading time!

Did you used to space out during lessons? I did it all the time, throughout my whole life. One time in primary school when I was 8 or 9 a teacher asked me what I was daydreaming about, in front of the whole class, to which I replied: "ants." Then everyone laughed except me. I don't remember this but many of my old classmates do.

Also in some of my group school photos, the whole class is huddled together in a group and I'm standing to the side with about 2 feet of gap in between me and the nearest person.

Most of the time I played by myself and when I was 3 in nursery/kindergarten I completely ignored the other children and did nothing but watch the tadpoles all day, every day. In the end they let me take some home with me. I remember this.

When I first started school it took more than 6 months for me to speak to anyone there, including the teacher. The day I said my first words to anyone was like a cause for celebration. The teacher told my mum and the two of them were "over the moon." However, I used to imitate other children; for example, one of them put her hand on her face and I copied everything she did, etc. I remember this vaguely.

My mum said there was a tantrum every morning at school when she left me there during my first 2 years of school. I used to cling onto her and cling onto the doorframe to try and stop them from getting me into the building. I remember this too.

I wasn't that good in lessons until year 7 Maths (age 11 for those of you in other countries)

Actually, I also couldn't tell the time until quite a late age. o_o

Do you have any home videos of how you acted? I revisited mine last year, and it was amazing how much I had forgotten about how I really was. I had thought of myself as shy because I would tap the teacher instead of raising my hand or yelling out stuff, but those home movies revealed someone who was definitely NOT as introverted as she is now, or as introverted as she thought she always was. People's personalities can change dramatically depending on a nearly endless list of external factors, which is why labeling many complex things - be it personality type, Asperger's, ADHD, you-name-it - can be so difficult.

Nope, my parents never took pictures or videos of me after about the age of 6, and all the video tapes have gone/broken/tired out over the years, and there aren't any pictures except up to the age of about 4.

There is one picture of me holding a tamagotchi back in the day with my brother next to me and I look very awkward, and have that "stare" xD Apart from that, there's not much history to go on