The anxiety of "good morning!"

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I'm just pathetic. When I'm alone I always think how interesting a spontaneous connection with another living being must be, in idealistic terms à la a scene in Waking Life - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P6cxWDrvIsI - but just now some random person simply said "good morning", with no negative connotations or threatening looks. It took me until they repeated it for the second time to reply. And soon after a surge of anxiety rushed through me.

I'm fed up of my feeble and ret*d self. You've no idea how many times something like this happened in my life that I regret.

I know what thats like. But I have a stutter, so sudden replies can be extra tenacious.

This is usually what happens to me when someone says "good morning" to me, same with "how's it going?" I usually pretend they didn't say it, and just go right to the point of the conversation.

The other reaction I get is a strong, strong surge of anger at them, and I think "FFFFFFFF%$#% why did you have to say that? I don't even know you!"

Yeah, I try to avoid morning greetings when I can. When I go to work, my routine consists of dropping my stuff off at my desk, then going to the (rather cramped) office kitchen to get some coffee....that is, unless there are people in the kitchen already, in which case, I return to my desk and wait it out for a few minutes.