Scintillate wrote:
I agree, this seems like some sort of obsessive hypochrondria.
We're similar but different?
What if you stay off the internet for a few days?
Maybe that way you can't log onto WP and you can turn this obsessive focus onto something else.
Have you seen a doctor about your problem?
To me it seems a combination of depression, obsession, paranoia, and desperation... No offence.. But if you DO have AS, you would see the strength in each of your weakness, or at least have the potential to see the strength..
I have been diagnosed with OCD. I was with an HMO, though, and the new company I work for has insurance, but not this particular HMO, so I will have to find a new doctor. Also, I had to stop taking Paxil because of not having anyone to prescribe it...Paxil helped a lot with obsessive thoughts.
Usually the only things I obsess about is either whether or not I have AS, or things about work or worrying about getting fired or that people won't like me, but I do feel I meet the criteria for OCD. I also have been diagnosed with social phobia/social anixety disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, and avoidant personality disorder. All of which I fit ALL the criteria for, and I don't think it's hypochondriacal to think I have those.
However, I'm not usually convinced I fit all the criteria for AS, so it is hypochondriacal to go to doctor after doctor trying to get diagnosed, or expecting anytime that someone will tell me that I have AS (I mean some random person, not someon on an AS board.)
If I were to read up on borderline personality disorder or bi-polar, I would probably feel like I didn't meeet all t he criteria of those either, but that they were things I didn't want to have; therefore I must really have them and be in denial about having them. This is the same way I feel about AS.