i start to be part of the neurotypical world and feel wierd

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For 18 years of my life, i stayed in my own world, only making brief visits to the normal world when needed and reteating to my own world at every given oportunity. However, nowadays, i started to try to be part of the normal world, but realize that i don't understand so much of the normal world. Everything fascinates me. Anyone have similar experiences?

Yes, I know what you feel. I've been there too. When I first did this, I was 19 years old and the incentive to step out of my inner world was my huge special interest in the gay community. So I went and volunteered at a local LGBT rights NGO. It was so fascinating... I remember going to an LGBT conference (sent there by the aforementioned NGO) in the South of France one summer. Every night there was a party hosted outdoors in an university campus. I used to stay on a bench in a corner and just listen to the music and watch all the people dance, do drugs, chat and enjoy themselves. I felt as if I was at this huge super-show. Very, very interesting... Those were some good times.

Maybe I like to be an observer of the NT world, because I feel like an explorer sailing the seas and coming across a strange land with strange inhabitants from this other different, mysterious culture than the one he comes from. If I were an NT, I bet it wouldn't be that interesting to me...

Some parts of the NT world can be fascinating, especially if they are related to your special interests. I enjoyed myself in therapy school, while volunteering at the LGBT NGO and a local rehab center. My special interests: psychotherapy, the gay community and psychoactive drugs

Too bad I still haven't been able to find the right balance between staying in my inner world and exploring the outside one too. I tend to go to extremes, trying to fit in, and push myself beyond my limits. Burnout ensues thereafter... Well, maybe now, that I know I am an Aspie, I will be able to figure out when to stop squeezing into the NT world, but it's gonna be a tough job. What I know for sure is that, as much as I want to be a part of the NT world, I'll always need to come back to my own inner world to recharge my batteries. My main mistake (not knowing anything about autism) was to believe that I just needed to get my act together and tried as hard as I could to ignore this need, thinking it was just laziness from my part. It didn't land me in a nice place, that's for sure...

Good luck to you in exploring the NT world. I hope you'll be wiser than I was and have overall a better time in society.

Its like wearing new clothes. They might feel weird at first, and maybe will never be what you're used to wearing, but it does get better with routine exposure.

No, I have always been living in the neurotypical world ever since I was born, and I intend to go on.

I feel like the Savage in Brave New World.

That's so true. I always related so much to the Savage when I read the book (which I loved a lot).

I tended to feel like a brave in a savage new world but it can be fun, annoying, painful, exciting and a range of others but you have complex reasoning/intelligence and they have big sticks, bows and a surprising amount of common sense and insight. If you both spoke the same language both would benefit, but if not then 999 times out of 1000 they'll cook you (1 in 1000 they all get small pox and are decimated, you win the country).

33 years in the NT world alone, I can never be completely me there but decided I can let the inner aspie out on a longer rope sometimes.