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jenisautistic
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20 Dec 2013, 4:10 pm

Hello everyone there was a miracle I almost lost my phone in school for the third time in one year and the last two but no more than a month or two apart. When I was in class, and I couldn't find my phone I got so upset I panicked.I was scared, worried and humiliated. we were watching a movie in my class. I couldn't tell the teacher what was really going on because she knew about the last two times and I was too embarrassed. so I just acted like I was really overwhelmed with all the people in the room and she was merging classes two classes mine and another to watch letters to Juliet. I probably made a fool of myself in front of everyone.but I had no time to worry about that.

I knew the last place I had it was in the library. I had been there for the past few periods.The last period There had been a party. there was so many people in there I almost got a headache but I stayed there anyway because I hadn't eaten for the whole day and I needed something to eat. Plus I had to stay with my class but staying there was a huge mistake. I don't have any pockets and I was doing or at least try to finish my test. I must've been overwhelmed or maybe just distracted not only from the test but with the amount of people and when I say distracted and overwhelmed I mean and autistic physical way not mentally.

I needed to have my phone with me at the time but I really should've done It another way but I don't know. Anyway I went to the library. I was so upset that when I came in and I tried to ask the librarian if she's seen it but I couldn't. I was trying to calm down so I went to the back of the left side of the room and I started crying. I couldn't handle it anymore. My grandmother well, if she would've blown up on me I wouldn't been able to take it I would've have to have done something.

Then all of a sudden this girl comes up to me and asked me where someone is. I told her I didn't see her but was still crying. She asked me what was wrong and I told everything was fine. I didn't want explain it and look stupid. Plus I had lost my faith in people returning things.Before this, nobody had ever really returned anything to me that I lost except one or two exceptions.After awhile she showed and handed me my phone. I was so shocked I said thank you so much and I Hugged her just barely. She said she found it under the couch. I had no idea how she knew it was mine. she told me to be more careful.I just thanked her again and left.

I couldn't explain to her why these things happen to me and I was still in shock. I was so relieved but still upset that I would get so panicked over just losing something even though I do it all the time just because of my grandmother and her misunderstanding and close mindedness at times being mean even though she may not mean it and they have good intentions. Why do you think that girl gave me my phone and return it to me?

She could've easily just walked away. I don't know if she was in the party from before she might've been. Nobody mentioned anything about my phone when I got in. Do you think that she only gave it to me because I was crying and so upset visually I guess or maybe because it was the holidays or something like that?or do you think that maybe she didn't know who's phone it was until she saw me? or do you just think that she didn't see me so she didn't give it to me until she saw me? Maybe you think something else. I really want to know your opinion. I'm so grateful that I have my phone now I don't know what I would've done if it was lost.

I got locked out of my apartment for the fourth time in 2 years and two of those times are my grandmother was in the house and she didn't hear me and was too stubborn to admit or maybe just doesn't care that she either needs to lower the radio and or TV so she could hear the door get new or maybe fix her hearing aids or get something for the door that makes her able to hear it.

Yes I do have keys but as you would expect I forget them sometimes and might even misplace or have the key somehow not working the door or I need to call her in a emergency four to take a picture of the board when I have homework but now I pretty much use my old iPod for that. I just don't know when I'm going to do.why can't I hold on to anything or I would a end up breaking it or something like that how can I hold on to anything if I can't hold on to my phone? It's so pathetic and mortifying and even scary. I don't know what to do. Don't get me wrong I love my grandmother it just that she's 84 years old and she doesn't always understand things like disabilities.

Now I can go to school bit earlier and not have to sit in the auditorium for the rest the periodBecause I'm too late. I don't know how long this will last this is because of my new medication and I'm thankful for that. I'm supposed to be smart and responsible. I know I have a lot of development issues but I just wish I wasn't so careless and again pathetic. If I asked my grandmother or uncle to Buy me a case like the I hangy case so I wouldn't lose it but they would say that would be ridiculous and all I needed to do is be careful and not be so careless.Believe me I try. I may end up ordering one myself but I really don't know if I should take the risk of losing anything like my phone if I can help it. Even if it means I get locked out i'm sure it's better than the alternative.


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20 Dec 2013, 4:22 pm

Woah - jenisautistic - do us a favor and break that giant block down into smaller paragraphs, dear. You don't have to rewrite it or anything, just put some spaces in between to make it smaller chunks of text, so it's easier to read. All I'm getting is "lost phone," "found phone," something about grandmother...the rest is just noise.

That solid wall of words is a little overwhelming. 8O My brain needs smaller bites. :lol:


Much better, thanks! I think maybe the girl saw you crying, then saw the phone on the floor and just put 2+2 together and guessed it was yours and that's why you were upset. Neurotypicals can figure things like that out that we often miss. As for why, well, there are still decent people in the world, maybe just not as many as there used to be.

I think getting a case for the phone that you can attach to your clothing (or a backpack, etc.) is a good idea. I keep my keys on a clip that I can attach to the belt loop on the side of my jeans, other wise, I'd lose them all over the place, 'cause they wouldn't fit comfortably in my pocket. It sometimes makes me jingle when I walk, but I don't lose my keys. When I'm home, there's an antique canister ashtray next to the door I toss them into, as soon as I walk in, so I always know where they are when I get ready to leave.



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20 Dec 2013, 4:47 pm

Willard wrote:
Woah - jenisautistic - do us a favor and break that giant block down into smaller paragraphs, dear. You don't have to rewrite it or anything, just put some spaces in between to make it smaller chunks of text, so it's easier to read. All I'm getting is "lost phone," "found phone," something about grandmother...the rest is just noise.

That solid wall of words is a little overwhelming. 8O My brain needs smaller bites. :lol:


I'm really sorry about that I was typing on my phone as I was going home and I was testing out the text to speech function because typing on your phone is just horrible.
I posted it fast because I didn't want to end up losing my post since I had to edit so much due to my speach problems and in the general speech errors with the text to speech software and my memory beginning so Selective.My memory is good but it only remember select things if you know what I mean. I'll fix it as soon as I can.

Edit : Wow I nearly threw up just looking at it. I must have been really upset not to have noticed that. Then again I barley even looked at it, if at all before posting it.


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20 Dec 2013, 6:21 pm

I think anything that helps the phone hang on to you instead of you hanging on to the phone is worthwhile. I have a purse to keep my phone in. If I didn't, I don't think I would still have the phone.



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21 Dec 2013, 2:01 am

I lose things all the time. It happens more often, when I am tired, multitasking or upset. If my head was not attached to my body I would have lost it a long time ago.

This is a result of Executive Function deficits common in Autism spectrum disorders.


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