Went to See the Doctor....
I have a doctor who's rather jaded and while very skilled and intelligent, tends to downplay any problems you have. In short, he's not a pill pusher. I worked up the courage to ask him about Aspergers and while he was very careful not to come out and agree I have it, he definitely knew a lot about it and told me I did my homework on it. He promised to refer me for a formal diagnosis and suggested it wouldn't be a bad idea although he understood why I was debating whether it was really necessary at this point. I was very pleased to see he didn't doubt me for one second and it was a welcome relief to know he actually asked about my obsessive interests and weird quirks and laughed when I told him what they are as if to agree that they are classic Aspie symptoms. He actually listened and understood and had a good chuckle when I told him that I can bet he has a lot of armchair doctors as patients who think they are experts after 5 minutes of Wikipedia and I'm certainly not one of them!
I can't tell you what a HUGE relief and surprise it was to not only be taken seriously and validated but also to asked intelligent follow up questions. I may not end up with a formal dx in the end but I have enough evidence to say with 100% certainty I'm an Aspie because a highly skilled Doctor pretty much told me I know exactly what I'm talking about! Good to know I'm not totally self-deluded
It is good to hear that you have a good doctor. My experiences with doctors has rarely been good partly due to how difficult it can be to express my thoughts and feelings to a person before getting to know them well which takes much longer than the time allotted in one or two appointments.
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The whole problem with the world is that fools and fanatics are always so certain of themselves, but wiser people so full of doubts.
Bertrand Russell
I have an appointment in 2 hours with my pdoc; the routine is for him to ask me about my mopeds, then I'll mention meltdowns and struggles I've had between visits to which he'll halfway listen, but not add any meds or change my current dosage, then he'll send me home with the same scrip for Adderall I've been getting for the last 2 years. During my last visit with my T she suggested asking him bluntly if he thinks I have AS. I hope I can do that today without screwing up
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Let's go on out and take a moped ride, and all your friends will thing your brain is fried, but you can't live your life too dirty, 'cause in the the end you're born to go 30
I just saw the doctor today too. I had that same worry that I would not be taken seriously. I know doctors are professionals and it sounds silly but i had this real fear that I would just be told I'm making something out of nothing (or whatever the medically-phrased version would be).
Although I found it very uncomfortable to talk openly about such personal stuff, it has been a massive weight off my shoulders. Although I have a long wait for my referral, I feel much better that she thought it was worth doing. It's strange because I would much rather be NT given that is how I have seen myself (excusing quite a few quirks) for at least the last decade or so but, after all I have read on the subject now, if it is not AS (and I am fairly certain it is) we are still talking that ball-park.
It's a bit of a backwards world when I need to be diagnosed with a neurological dissorder so that I can get my sanity back
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AQ46, EQ9, FQ20, SQ50
RAADS-R: 181 (Language: 9, Social: 97, Sensory/Motor: 37, Interests: 36)
Aspie Quiz: AS129, NT80
Alexithymia: 137