I am now convinced I will never get a job. Or at least never get a job that requires brain power.
I have a recorded IQ of 160, I have come out in the top 250 in the UK in a national mathematics competition when I was 17, and I am in the 3rd most prestigious University in the UK. I got average 70% in my first year University exams.
But I think I am unemployable.
I have quite severe AS. I need a full-time support worker at University, otherwise I cannot even enter the lecture hall, or even the building for that matter. I cannot use public transport in the rush hour or during school run (I can only go on public transport very early in the morning or at other times when the train/bus/etc is rather empty), so I need a taxi service to University when I have to travel during the rush hour. I have researched interview questions online and I got pretty much every interview question wrong. I cannot cope with physical contact; even shaking hands upsets me. I am not very good socially at all; if I know the person, I will go on a long monologue about myself or my special interest. If I don't know the person I will say very little or nothing at all (like selective mutism). I am inappropriate socially and often make the "wrong" statements that offend people (like saying to a girl who was crying about her ex-boyfriend splitting up with her: "maybe he dumped you because he didn't like you" - which seems perfectly reasonable to me, but is apparently the "wrong" thing to say). I have very bad sensory issues; fluorescent lights, computer screens, roads, noisy places, people talking, even coffee machines, and especially fire alarms, make me get agitated. In fact last time I was in a room when the fire alarm went off, I started screaming and hid under a table with my hands over my ears; it took two people to get me to come out and evacuate the building, and someone had to calm me down outside by doing breathing exercises. I have a history of absconding/running off when I get very stressed out, and it often ends up with the police picking me up. I can spend days locking myself in my bedroom because the anxiety of leaving the house is immense at times. I live in supported housing right now. Oh, and I have a phone phobia.
I don't see how I will ever get a job. I WANT to get a job. I want to get into pharmaceutical research (I'm doing a BSc Pharmacology degree at University College London). But there seems so much against me.
Do you think I will ever get a job? If so, how can they accommodate my rather severe AS? I also have schizophrenia, which means that the paranoia/voices/irrational thoughts I get compound my already bad problems. When I get extremely stressed out, it triggers a relapse and I end up sectioned and put on the psych ward. It has got bad enough that I have been sent to a secure unit several times before.
I don't want to spend the rest of my life on income support benefits and housing benefit, in supported housing (although my disability benefits are not means tested so I will continue to get them even if I do get a job) and having ridiculous amounts of support.
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I am a partially verbal classic autistic. I am a pharmacology student with full time support.