Do you feel that It's not in your nature to be normal or...

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that you're actually disabled and there's nothing special about you?

Note choose "A mix between two" option if you accept the fact that you actually lack of NT common features but also possess something extraordinary.

I find much of your posting to be hurtful and offensive

I am definitely disabled. My ASD combines with my social anxiety to put a fog that is over me for most of the time. It makes me awkward, I can't communicate, I can't think, and I can't perceive. I can only watch from a distance. I feel like I am normal inside but just can't break out of it.

It's like an external wall that cuts me off from the world. I know it's not in my true nature to have ASD, and someday, I hope to find a way to remove the wall. I really fail to identify with people who think of ASD as something that must be accepted. It's really a terrible thing, even in minor doses.

What makes Surfman find many of the postings here to be hurtful and offensive? Is this a general or specific comments and, if so, what is so hurtful and offensive? I, for one, would like to know.

FYI, the poll isn't quite granular enough for me. At times, I'm more disabled than at others. It about having PTSD since early childhood in addition to Asperger's (formal Dx), ADHD... the usual. Too much too fast clobbering in the PTSD part of me will cause serious de-compensation. Only within the past several months have I discovered (and have been taking) a medication which helps with extreme emotional pain from PTSD (which was very tough to sort from Melt Down experiences, triggered brief and strange atonal seizure events and caused me to skate precariously close to "I don't care whether I live or die" edge). Should this info be helpful to anyone else, it's the generic for Topomax.

I'm better than I WAS, although it is clear to me that it would be best for me to be living either on my own or in the presence of one or two other people who are much more like myself than where I'm living at present. I put up with a lot of BS before telling people off. The sort of people who spout BS and are generally not very smart with their minds but are with their mouths mistake my tolerance for weakness. This is a sad error. So? I'm kind of disabled at times. I still can't put up Xmas decorations without having panic attacks, but am not afraid of spiders, snakes, wild cats, wolves. When I hear a man yelling or cursing, I want to run away screaming even when it has nothing at all to do with me. Usually not a big deal about Xmas decorations because I'm a Buddhist, but when a friend or employer asks me to put up lights and I fall apart...? omg. So I've answered the question, but it's taken many more words than an if/then/else equation.

None of those are an exact fit for me...I am disabled by some of my mental issues aside from the autism I have PTSD, Anxiety and Depression. I also feel normal life as defined by society would be rather bland for me, but not because I think I have any extraordinary abilities or traits or anything just even if I could function well enough to have the option of a 'normal' life I'd probably look for an alternative.

NT life is not too bland for me. It is too noisy, too fast, too confusing, too aggressive, I don't understand it, and I can't relate to it or other people..I don't want to learn to be social, I do not think I can even learn to be social, It is too foreign and strange to me. it's not who I am. I am happy in my own world. At least I have family not too far from me and a little bit of social security coming in.
If I were normal I would have had a better life and I would be more financially secure now. There are things I could use help with but I don't get help because I have nobody to turn to when there is a problem.
I don't know if I am disabled. I never thought that being socially withdrawn was a disability. It was always just the way I am and I have to struggle through and do the best I can whatever way I can to survive, and I can be very innovative with that. It never occurs to me to seek help or talk about my problems or difficulties, I just keep things to myself. Am I disabled? I don't know.

None of the above. My view on life is take it as it is.