Kind of stuck here (Father problems)

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First of all, im new here, so sorry if this isnt categorized as general discussion, but ill go ahead anyway:
So, yeah. About 3 years ago, my mother was diagnosed with sclerosis. My father (who has aspergers, like i do) has been traumatised by this.
Over the years, it has clearly worn him out mentally, and he is now trying to control everything going on in the family himself.
My mother who lived a lifestyle completely opposite to what she is asked to live like after getting diagnosed with sclerosis cant really seem to
think logically anymore, often starting a discussion and then changing subject in a matter of seconds, leaving my father with a face that really asks for agreement, almost saying "Did you see that?... She is a crazy b***h". Every once in a while he also says it out loud in case she or anyone nearby didnt get it.
Just now, he came in just before he went to bed and were about to say goodnight. I sat on my computer, playing games like i usually do. I also had a ipad running.
The first thing he does is to shout at me, telling me that we cant have me using all the internet. So i asked him "Why? You are going to bed anyway", only to be interrupted and told not to snap back. I try to ask him again, but he threathens me that he will plug off whatever is related to my computer and/or devices. He then proceeds to shut the door, gets his self-rightous last words, and then leaves. I have tried a couple of times to intercept him to make him explain why this is making him so mad before he shuts the door, but that only
ends up with getting my belongings removed. So he basically forces me to listen to his frustration from my mothers sickness, and leaves me no choice to defend myself.
As if that wasnt bad enough, it has started a depression that im trying to hide. I dont have any private friends, only familiars who look down upon these kind of things.
Over the time, the more he does this, the more it stacks up until the bursting point. Im sure almost all of you know what i mean. I also just became 18 years old, but i have no job, and im trying to work as hard as i can on my education.
What the hell do i do before i shut down?

it's good you understand that your dad is taking out his frustrations about things you have no control over on you. it still bothers you, though. i'd try not talking back, because your dad needs all the support he can get. is there a school counselor you can talk to?

There is a school counselor i can speak with, she is there for people with problems like the ones im having right now.
I just cant make myself speak to her though, as i feel i need to finish my school-related work.

When I was growing up you couldn't ask my father any question that began with "why." You'd be spitting teeth automatically. I later had a troublesome relationship with my stepfather who pulled a gun on me once. There were many years of depression because I was stuck there. I went to college at 18, far from home, too. I went halfway across the country. If that college didn't accept me, I would've applied to the University of Juneau in Alaska, anyplace just to get out of my stifling home.

It's unfortunate things are bad for you now. Going away to college offers hope. Enlisting in the armed forces is another. I'm not advocating drug use, but unfortunately, a lot of troubled kids do choose that route to escape their negative home life. Getting a job and moving out is also an excellent option. Lots of young people find other people to room with so it's cheaper for them.

That sounds a very bad situation.

Therapy for the parents.

For you - good boundary function. Ultimately you need strong boundaries to keep this toxicity out. Dad needs to deal with his emotions better rather then attempt to run away or ignore them. The old brain always wins and ignoring it leads to a short temper and ranting. You dad is freaked out about your mum. Maybe getting her to stop drinking is the key? - guessing that is causative.

My dad used to fight me until I hit 13 and I could win. Many dads emotionally crap on you because they cant deal with their feelings. Keep your boundaries strong. You cant change them but you can choose to not be around it.

Pretty sure OP meant MS which is a degenerative disease, which seems to make a person bitshat crazy without adding alcohol to the problem. Wish I could give something useful, I'm dealing with such a mother myself (fibromyalgia) and at the moment I've been painted black meaning I can do no right. As long as she or my golden child brother don't F- with my special interests I have at least that to turn to. Just a thought; maybe at some other time in the day tell your dad the last thing you want to do is intentionally bother him and that you weren't aware how your actions were causing him grief. He might lay out his reasons for not doing whatever it was you did