Blowups/shutdowns, falling-outs prior to becoming ill?

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Chicken-or-egg scenario I suppose; yesterday I was feeling fine physically and the day ended on an emotional low. Normally I can sleep 7 or 8 hours and if I get up at night I can doze off again. I had an extremely difficult time getting comfortable enough to sleep and was having slight abdominal discomfort which I attributed to the coffee I had earlier, which I seldom drink.
Twice during the night I had to get up and run to the wastebasket; I only ever get that sick every 5 years or so. A few hours later, I had other symptoms and nobody else had felt anything from having the same thing to eat, I don't seem that prone to food poisoning anyway but it did occur to me that nobody else wants to catch the flu so it did gain me at least a day so far of peace.

So I'm not entirely sure at this stage if it is a bug I've caught or a simple acute stress reaction, but I noticed a complete turnabout of others' perceptions of me from yesterday and it got me curious on this. Has anyone experienced being thought of as a complete ogre one moment and the next it's all "poor baby" (I'm reluctant to be waited on unless totally incapacitated) and all the previous negativity and resentments seem to just vaporize? Is this a thing of people-not-us wanting to prove their capacity for empathy? If I could switch it on and off, even though I hate being sick, I would do it as an out when things get too stifling.

A couple of weeks before Christmas, I came down with a bad cold and ran a fever for a few days. The night before I became ill, I felt emotionally overwhelmed to the point of tears streaming down my face, even though I realized that there was no reason for me to feel that way.