Is my aspergers getting worse or could I have a tumor?

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I feel myself changing so much for the worse. I no longer make eye contact, I am paranoid, depressed, angry and I feel old symptoms coming back. I am so depressed I get headaches. I am still a virgin at 22, I am unemployed, I sometimes just quietly cry myself to sleep in my room. I just wish I could be happy, have friends and a girlfriend. I am so upset with my life. I overcame social woes several years ago and have reverted back to my old ways, people that I met when I was sociable ask me if I am okay, or why I changed. I don't know. I can't help it. I hate myself. My mind is torturing me. I am so upset. I know I sound like a whiny loser but please I am in so much emotional pain.

Those changes can be through depression, it can get very intense and worsen your autistic symptoms at that time you have depression.

Sorry for the boring piece of advice, but seriously you should see a doctor about how you feel. I agree with Raziel about you probably having depression. You had better get it treated early.

You are not a whiny loser for expressing how you feel. Sometimes you have to. You shouldn't keep it to yourself.

I have had a similar experience for a bit different reasons. That period of time was so awful. Just being awake was a torture. Thankfully, I'm feeling much better nowadays. It might take some time, but you will gradually start feeling better. But as I said, please go and see a doctor, if you haven't done so yet.

I agree with Raziel; our physical health has great impact upon our emotional health. Where I'm at, juniper is pollinating, and it is terrible. I've noticed there is a direct correlation between allergies and how "aspie" I am. When they are really bad, I am really aspie. I'm guessing a mental malady may very well have the same effect.

Mike, as for depression, what I do when things start getting me down is find something to do. If I can force myself to get busy, my depression mysteriously dissipates.

I have felt like this many times. If you can stand it then just let it pass. I always think of it like having a cold and it has to run its course. Finding something to do, preocupying yourself with a special interest can keep depression at a manageable level.

I think you will meet someone in your life, maybe not next week or next month but it will happen. You have got time.

I sometimes wonder if I have a brain tumour when I get this bad and I always do at this time of year when winter has been dragging on too long. You may be suffering with a lack of Vitamin D if you live in a northern region. This is because of too little sun during the winter months. I take a vitamin D tablet ever few days to keep it topped up and I think it helps.

You are 22, a lot of Aspies are still maturing at 22. Well, everybody of this age are still kind of changing to a degree but it sometimes notices more in people like us. I'm 22 too, and I feel my anxieties have got worse, and I've even become more agitated more than I ever was, and I am unable to settle when people are moving about in the house, but I don't want to move out and live alone because I still feel I'm not quite ready (not so much because I can't do things for myself because I can, but more so because of my anxiety levels and feelings of stress and vulnerability).

As Aspies we have probably developed our self-awareness a little later than normal, and so are realising it around 18-25, which could be causing stress and anxiety because of trying to mask our Aspieness due to fear and sensitivity of what other people think of us, but having to put a lot of effort into our behaviour and even personality in order to achieve some sort of social level. It sometimes works with us feeling more socially accepted, but the stress it can cause gets greater until it makes you feel like it is destroying you mentally.

I don't know if that's true or not but it is for me, and I'm the same age as you and have the same levels of stress and anxiety and depression as you. Also I am a 22-year-old virgin, all of my cousins have had sex at least once before in their lives, well, except for the youngest ones, but I assume they'll lose their virginity before me when they get to around 16 or over. To make you feel better, my brother is nearly 27 and has never had sex before. He isn't Aspie, but he severely lacks confidence and the last girlfriend he had was when he was about 15.