The daily rage

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Right now I am almost constantly angry or actually furious. I dislike most of my university colleagues, loud stupid monkeys who yell and sing in class. I hate my flat neighbour who slams doors and talks loudly until 5 am. I feel so much hate sometimes for people I don't even really know. Like when I'm on my way to school and there's a group of guys in front of me, walking extremely slowly and blocking the entire path, talking loudly about some stupid s**t. I have always seen justice and being considerate as almost as necessary as breathing, and when someone just can't get the idea into their head that it miiight be a good idea to make some room for people who are in a hurry, it angers me to no end. Or when some girls buried under makeup come walking in my direction, again entirely blocking the path, and I basically have to jump on the street because their pretty heads can't figure out how to make room. Or when the guy sitting behind me in a lecture whistles and makes weird breathing sounds (deliberately) all the time, I become more and more agressive and think HOLY CRAP JUST SHUT UP!! !! Or when people are loud, have phone calls or eat in the quiet zones of the library - and nobody gives a s**t! There are rules against that, of course, but nobody cares if they're being broken. And then they become angry at US because apparently evading eye contact, which hurts NOONE, is RUDE??

Sorry, this is basically just ranting. But I feel so much hate and disgust a lot of the days right now. I feel morally and intellectually superior to almost everyone I meet, and I know that probably makes me arrogant, but I just go out of my way to not bother anyone and nobody cares. Actually, they call me weird and cheer for the rude, inconsiderate, stupid loud monkeys.

Everyday, I just feel more and more desperate that I have to live in a society whose morals and ideals clash with mine so much. I think it's probably not healthy to be so angry most of the time. I would like to care less, but I just can't, not so far.

Do you know this? Constantly feeling hate, disgust and anger, helplessness, frustration? Well, it's not like I'm miserable all the time, but I find that it becomes increasingly distressing.

I feel the same way
I try to just let it go because if I dont I will eventually go into a meltdown/shutdown

I've been a misanthrope for almost as long as I can remember. Sometimes in my digust with humankind.... i'm tempted to follow in Lao Tzu's (supposed author of the Tao Te Ching) alleged footsteps, jump on a horse and ride out in the wilderness.


"Separate yourself from humanity, for what use have you for these pale, blinking fools and their ceaseless yammerings? In life they serve no function, and in death they are only food for the crawling creatures. Take yourself apart, embrace your fear, and listen to the darkness. Your teachers will come; as they appear before you, consume their wisdom. Grind their chitinous cases between your teeth and partake of their essence. The whirring of their wings and the rubbing of their legs is music. Consume all, even the other things that approach, those that have no bodies but only teeth and eyes that gleam in shadow. The crawling things instruct the body, and the shadow shapes teach the mind, but the wisdom of both must be consumed. There is only hunger in the universe. Devour everything".

Abdul Alhazred, "The Mad Arab"


"The Necronomicon".

I go through cycles. Lately I have been short tempered and annoyed with everyone and everything, and more prone to complete meltdowns. I just try to float through it, because things will probably look different later on.

I know how you feel. I hated people being loud and obnoxious in college. The thing to do is turn your back on them. As for noisy neighbors, I just ignore them as I do not want trouble. If you have a land lord, then you could complain to them.

I feel the same. I can't stand those inconsiderate idiots. I'm full of anger a lot of the time. It's tough when you are not one of them.

I know exactly what you mean, my worst thing is commuting to work on the train ,I have an hour journey on one train and some days I feel like exploding, at 6 am in the morning I had some moron slurping a can of coke and then proceed to make a load of noise eating a bag of pickled onion monster munch and round iit off by eating a mars bar ,what a great nutritional start to the day.also there are people who instead of opening the free morning newspaper quietly will bat the paper from page to page like they are playing tennis whilst most of the other passengers are trying to get some shut eye.These people either do not realise there is such thing as manners and etiquette or they just don't give a s***t.God thinking about it why do I put myself through this every day

We (we're dentical twins) feel increasingly misanthropic too. We had to drop out of college because of disgusted we became by the inane classmates who would not even try to contribute anything in class and could barely even put a coherent sentence together. How did they even graduate high school wen they consider fragments whole sentences? We worked as tutors, which made us even more angry.Though we never got angry at our students, it was hell being stood up by them and jsut waiitng and wiaitnt for them to show and not getting paid for our wasted time. People are generally getting noisier, more rude, and just plain stupid. I'm not insulting men or anything, but the lack of chivalry shown by them to women these days is atrocious. We've had times when we're lugging heavy things etc and a man is nearby and doesn't show the faintest interest in helping. To quote Herman Melville, "Oh Bartleby, oh humanity!"

I feel angry and disgusted by the people at my University a lot, too....people walking really slowly while I'm stuck behind them is a big pet peeve of mine, as well. I think it helps that I stay in my room most of the time, tho...if I were exposed to the idiocy of humankind on a constant basis, I really would lose it eventually.

Well, it helps to know I'm not alone.

Do you guys have any strategies to calm down? To suppress this rage? Because I feel like it will just become worse and worse in time and at one point I will either become depressed or hurt someone.

I just feel frustrated that I get to miss out on love and romance because my way of thinking or my ideals and philosophies are often so different from the majority of people I encounter.

My tendency to be quirky and different gets me labelled as mentally ill, when in actual fact many of my quirks are far less harmful that many behaviours that are considered normal. This results in my experiencing stigma related to the mental health label (ie depression or anxiety).

I get angry about it aye, but at the end of the day there is nothing I can do about it as I cannot change society and I am not willing to change in those ways to fit into it...its a stalemate.

I am better off alone with my hobbies.

Its made even worse by being a woman. Despite gaining A grades at university I am often expected to give up my studies to focus on cooking for and cleaning up after a man and making home...

It's frustrating as I really would prefer a career.

I also get annoyed as my drs keep diagnosing my headaches as tension headache when they are clearly migraine (left sided, thumping, light sensitivity, nausea, vomiting, numbness on left side and flashing lights before they start etc).

The combined result of societies ignorance is that my A grade average is wasted whilst I sit on my arse on disability benefits.

What a ridiculous waste of skill just because I think a little differently....

Yeah pisses me off.

I can really relate to this, especially people in front of me walking slow. Why should the pace I have to go be dictated by people ahead of me? I want to choose how fast I walk. And when you finally find an air pocket to squeeze past in your peripheral vision you can envisage them giving a stare. And people eating nearby. I was at a football match today and there was rows of people gnawing on burgers and chips as if it was their last meal. Some even had their jaws making a rotation as if it was double jointed from the head or some efficient industrial machine making it look easy, shredding and tearing at the horsemeat infected circular patties. Sometimes I feel superior too, that is when my black dog isn't around. I just think at least my taste in music involves more then three primary chords.

I am angry a fair amount.

Stu

I think a main part of this is just that we think so differently than the "average population". We have different interests, morals, ideals.. we don't want to play the social dominance/power game... it's the good old "wrong planet"-feeling all over again. It's stronger than ever at the moment. I'm not even being bullied any more, most people treat me pretty normally, but I feel alone and like I'm not meant to be here. How are we supposed to cope with that...