Emettman wrote:
Whatever I am, I'm not my age, so I have the same sort of split as you.
I don't act/think my age. Seriously older, yes, seriously younger, yes.
The one age group that, overall, I've had most difficulty getting on with is my own.
Much the same here. I get on either with small children or older people, but rarely with teens or people my age. It's better now than it was when I was a teen - age differences appear to become less relevant with time - but it's still there.
I'd say I usually feel somewhere like 9 to 12. When I'm my normal hypomanic-ey self, I'm your typical extroverted curious kid. Getting all excited about learning something new (about animals) or finding out how things work (in the animal kingdom of course), and just loving every little thing. I never lost my sense of wonder, and the world still seems more often than not full of magic.
But there are moments when I'm thoughtful and start looking back on my life and summing up what I've learned from it. Then I become acutely aware of who I am and what various things things mean to me - on the whole, of how meaningful every moment is. It's almost intolerable and feels like being an old person in a young woman's body.